with great reservation

Song of the day: "Timebomb" P!nk


Mood: Nervous


There is a moment in time, when as a parent, you realize how much you love your children.  I would do anything within my reach for my kids.


My reach is more like a grasp some days.  But today I bucked up and did the right thing.  I bought the kids tickets to the upcoming Smackdown event.  I really did not want to.  However, watching Lucy the last week and how she has been interacting with her softball friends and us (the family) I made the decision to do this.


Wrestling is that kids world.  I am stunned every time I think about her pure and unadulterated love of character Sheamus and the WWE universe.  She has picked a bunch of characters to enjoy that don't go together. Their story lines don't cross, their alliances don't mix (on the surface now... don't mean they didn't and won't...) and yet... she makes them make sense.  Her current favorites are:
Sheamus, AJLee, the Wyatt with the red beard, Triple H, ADR, Ziggler, and in secret Orton. 


This is interesting because she verbally hates the Wyatt's in general. She thinks they are icky and odd BUT loves the theme song. The theme song that the guy with the red beard is somehow linked to.  I catch her humming it in the shower all the time.  Really? And she has disliked Orton from day one until he saved Triple H from Daniel Bryan last week; when Orton made the two attempts to save Triple H from DB, Lucy said... "Wow... Orton is something. He has a daughter and he saved Triple H." which made my husband and I say..."WHAT???" and she promptly asked us not to tell anyone.  REALLY? Orton??? she likes Orton??? Cool damn kid ... that is what I have.


Yesterday I went through Lucy's bookbag. I found a note she wrote to her teacher and a reply from her teacher.  She told her teacher in the note that she was going to Smackdown.  I was overwhelmed with guilt at not having bought the tickets yet.


So, guess what? First thing this morning I ran down and bought tickets. Guilt and love are powerful things.  They are not the best seats and they are not in the section we normally sit in at the Bridgstone arena but... they will do. They are what was available in our price range. 


We are pretty close to where Clingon and her family are seated.  We are pretty close to where Bob and his family are. We are close to where Hunter and his parents and sister are. It is like... all 35 of us are there again but we are polka dotted around 3 sections. LOL. It will make cheer communication difficult where at the RAW event we were all in the same section and managed to re-arrange and sit the kids all together up front and us together. Oh well. It will be fun all the same. WWE is unable to fail at entertaining. I think for the next event I will just corner everyone and buy a group rate tickets so we are sitting all together.  I need to get with Bob and see what he says.


I also need to run to Hot Topic when they open and see about coordinating shirts for us 4. Meh. Nah, I will get everyone a new shirt of their favorite character and look for an Authority shirt for me. Do they have shirts for The Authority???

parenting is hard

Song of the day, "Wish You were here" Avril Lavigne
mood: brain warp confusion


topics at hand: genius and how to deal with it, belligerent disregard for authority, and how to show math work


My brain works differently than most people.  I know this. I have known this. I have a difficult time dealing with society because of it. I don't understand how people can "NOT" figure stuff out and why are they always so stupid.


After todays IEP meeting, I think the problem is because schools dumb people down. Serious. They hold back the smart people or make so many loopholes that you just can't surface until it is too late. I firmly believe this is where we are encompassing a problem with authority issues. We learn from example and if an authority figures holds you back... you are not going to forget that.  Being withheld from something dangerous is a different matter. But the schools are acting like a brain is a dangerous weapon and should not be utilized to the fullest extent. I think the opposite. Idle mind lends to destruction. Self destruction, social destruction, physical destruction, and reckless lifestyles.  And who gives a fuck how you get the right answer as long as you got it? Why so much emphasis on showing work?


Let us stop dumbing people down. What is wrong with bringing them up and asking for their full potential?  Taking a minute to reflect on Ken Shamrock and profit101.net . It bothers me that every conversation I've had about him there is one person or several that say "He WAS..." and nobody ever states that "he IS...". Shamrock IS a very smart man.  Go to his site and pay to join it and learn from him.  He IS able to teach and guide you to doing moves correctly and telling you what muscles will enforce that move.  Bring him up for who he is and  not for who he was. Wrap your brain around thinking and relearning stuff.  People and rules both change.  Learn how to learn outside the box and don't let the common denominator provide the outcome for your thinking.  If Ken had allowed himself to only think within the box... he'd never have learned a shin breaking leg bar or how to roll out of a cover etc.


Or how about John Cena?  Everyone on twitter is hating on Cena. Why? Because he sacrificed himself and his privacy and made himself a brand and ooooh... made millions off of it?  I think he is brilliant.  I think part of the hating that goes on is because you (all of you that judge celebrities) are jealous that you (yourself) won't make that sacrifice.  And it is not just his privacy and personal identity that he sacrifices.  I'd imagine that every glass of wine he drinks he thinks, "I've got to do X amount of cardio to burn these calories" or something of that nature. He can't enjoy the simple things you and I take advantage of.  When you get into pro-athletics... everything around you is calculated. You have timed sleep. You are almost autistic in your routines.  I know that much. Or when I was an athlete that is how I was.  Everything was as I made it.  And I felt it when I slipped and had a cookie or took that 20 minute nap. I don't now... oh no... cookies???? run at me.... more more more. But the topic is how you learn.  Why not accept Cena for who he is becoming now? A smart businessman that is maybe not going to be the Champ you are used to seeing?  Re-learn how you perceive him and you will find that you don't hate the man.  You might  actually find you admire him for what he has done and is doing.  My youngest child really don't like Cena.  We did some research on him.  Lucy started to read that he does a bunch of Make a Wish things.  I then had to explain what MAKE A WISH is and that we have done some too. She was very excited. She said, "I think I like John Cena for who he is." And as a parent my eyes got all leaky and stuff. Good kid.


Don't stop learning just because you got out of school. Yes... most of us survived high school and college. Me...by the skin of my teeth.  But I have never stopped learning. There are many days where I feel like I'm all an adult and stuff and then I realize I've fucked something up or worse... find out I was wrong about something. Hey, but when I'm wrong, I own up to it. Absolutely every damn time.  I've found I really like the flavor of crow.


So, moving on to authority.  As an adult, educator, police officer, parent or even a "safe adult" friend ... remember your actions dictate things to other people. I see it every day. Today. Today I watch authority being abused and used.  One person in the meeting was saying the test indicate that Lucy is depressed. And that she scored highest because she is not interested in things that "other" kids are.  The vice principal said he didn't agree with the test because Lucy was interested in things that other kids (gender specific) are.  He said, Talk to her about baseball or wrestling and you will see her eyes light up. He went on to say he is constantly looking up new wrestlers and historical ones so when he see's her in the hall he can ask her something and test her knowledge. He said she calls him silly and will joke with him. This is true. Lucy found out that Mr M knew about WWE and he went from her top hated person to a very well liked and trusted adult.  That also ties in with re-learning how we view a person.  The first person was very agitated at her pointed out depression was a factor and I re-directed it to social repression more than depression. What a shit storm that brewed but in my favor.


Social repression is taught in school folks.  You classify and pigeon hole people into classes of people... they are the preppy ones... they are the metal heads... blah blah blah. Once you classify people you then repress specific groups of people because they don't fit your guideline.  This is a marketing tool to divide who will be management, or grunts, or marketing, or creative, or athletic or financial workers in the workforce.  Which ever it may be.  You as an individual will judge and alienate 5-60 people on a daily basis and not even be aware of it. Don't believe me? Take you a small notebook to the mall on a busy day. Find you a chair or sit in the food court. Observe people and judge them or tweet them. Bet you have: fatty fatty two by four, thigh gap, nerd, thug, N word, jerk, mr GQ, etc. Guarantee it. You will be able to label just about everyone that passes you. Even the mall cop you will call rent a cop. Serious.  Shame on you. And me. I am not exempt. Mine were very ugly things. Suck that bottom lip in you retard. Lick em stick em lips... oh hell no... it is lipstick not paste... did you even look in the fucking mirror? I should have tweeted instead of note padded it. I would have been a very unfollowed person that day (on twitter... had I actually done it)... but later... I re-read what I wrote. I felt pretty sick inside. Is that me? Why do I think such awful things? So.. I did it again and this time I only allowed myself to say positive things. Guess what? That is fucking hard. Sticky over-lipsticked girls are my biggest pet peeve. I said... well she picked a nice shade of lipstick... it matches her handbag... Very hard to be positive about everyone. Cutie and hotie don't count. Pick one thing on that person you'd say is a geek and say something nice. Ouch. I know.. I know... The pen protector prevents chest injury when he gets a swirly.... wait what? See... it is very hard to not socially repress someone because they are not the same as you.  You are halfway to being a brand yourself, did you know that? Because you are getting lost in a sea of confusion. SWIM.


Showing your math.  It is an interesting concept. It really reinforces accountability and not a representation of how you solved the problem.  I did a math test in 9th grade. As I solved the problems I just doodled? I'd draw things and lines and hash marks and dots... and then I'd write the number. sometimes I never used a number sometimes I'd use words only I'd jumble them first.  I can remember Dr Yadagari pulling me aside after a test and giving me an F on a paper where not one wrong answer was given. He said I cheated and did not show my work. I grabbed my scrap paper and give it to him. He said that was rubbish and was not showing my work. I was a very hard teenager. Nothing got to me. I'd get out of that class and be consumed with rage. I'd take it out on softball. Regardless, I was sitting in his detention one afternoon. I was doing my math homework (he was the detention teacher not a detention for him) and he sat next to me and watched me. I did my doodle things and was unaware he was there. When I finished he asked if he could see the homework and the scrap paper. He kept these a few days and asked me to stay 9th (detention but not trouble type) period. I did and we fussed and discussed the paper and I ended up in tears. I told him I did not know how to show my math the way he wanted me too. I'd tried and I do it that way and I get the problem wrong. I passed with a C and he said it was the hardest decision he ever made but technically earned an A in the class however by refusing to do the work I was unaccountable.


Almost 25 years later it still bothers me.


I do show my math now. But I show it how I do it. Like for working out. I keep a sheet on each workout. reps/sets/weight blah blah blah.  What I do looks strange but it works for me. I was actually asked about it and the person was looking it over. He said, ya know it makes sense I just don't know how to log it.


But do we really need to know how to log it? If we make ourselves accountable to ourself... are we not further ahead of the game?  Hint hint... it also keeps your ass out of jail. If you obey your own set of laws and set a parameter of right and wrong, hey guess what?  You are going to find it easer to obey social laws (not killing people, driving right, not causing harm... etc), and social bylaws (how we interact with each other) and all that crap.  Accountability is not writing everything down. I have not kept a checkbook in 25 years. I do my balance in my head. I go over it mentally with each financial transaction, I go over it in my head when I shower, and I have only bounced once check (and that was NOT my fault it was a $430 gasoline purchase instead of a $30 one and the gas station paid the banks overdraft fee) in 25 years.  I don't understand how people keep a check book. I know how to. I have done it. I balance my husbands. I just don't know how people can not know how much they are worth.  You are worth what you do.


Your actions make you worth more than that bank account does. We are not rich. There are many days I wish we were. Days I wish I could go out and get a real job. Days where I'd rather cry while I drive my Bentley than my car. Yes indeedy. We all judge by the greenbacks. Even ourselves. But guess what? Money don't make you happy either.


The day we donated our hair... I was happy.  The day I bought a kid his meal at a ball game... I was happy.  The day I donated tickets that we couldn't use to make a wish... I was happy.  Judge yourself by the good you do. And yes. Brag on it. Your friends... your true friends... will probably tell you what makes them happy.  Daisies make me happy to look at. Not roses. Do you think I ever get a Daisy?


and yes... I still pick the petals off them... I am like that... so get me a few of them :-)

coffee ... workouts...

Song of the day: "I want a new drug" Huey Lewis and the News
Mood: Yes


I know... I know... I have not been blogging. Things have been hectic. Such is a day in my life. If it were not hectic then I'd worry something was wrong... wrong... wrong...


phone died, cat sick, kids sick, blah blah blah.


But I am still working out. I just have not posted about it. Are you working out? What did you do today?


I picked the above Huey Lewis song for a reason. Working out has become my new drug. Honest. Not that I needed another crutch in life. Am I using it to replace coffee? Yes. Do I want coffee? Yes.


Today I do.  I am so cold and I'd love a cup. But I made a vow to God to give up espresso for 40 days as a forgiveness.  In one way I feel like I made a poor decision. In another way I feel like it is showing me just how strong I am.


Every time I have an urge. I pick a video from Ken Shamrock's profit101.net (It is a paid service and well worth his fee) and watch it. If the exercise is something I am physically able to do (I do try them to make sure) I add it to my routine for upper or lower body workouts.  It is not easy. I have picked up four exercises to add to my routines.  Not really a punishment. Just pushing it a little further.


I am not sure about this coffee thing. I almost feel hyper without it. Is that withdrawals?  I never feel hyper when I drink coffee.  I never feel driven when I drink it. It don't even wake me up in the morning... I just feel like I've had something warm. I never feel giddy or like I have to go, go, go... but not having it... I am half crazed. I wonder if coffee is not a contributing factor to my weight problem? Who knows.

workout - Lent - giving up something

Song of the day: "Burn MF" FFDP
mood: determined


Today Is ASH Wednesday. I am not going into the history of Lent. Either you are Catholic or you practice Lent as part of Passover or you don't. Lent last 40 days.


For Lent I am giving up Espresso.  I drink Espresso instead of normal coffee. I have committed to giving up Espresso for Lent. I will most likely include regular coffee in this. Not sure yet.


I plan to pray a lot.


I plan to use Ken Shamrock's profit101.net


Every time I want a coffee... I am going to workout.  This worked to quit smoking (working out not profit).  I think giving up coffee will be harder than giving up smoking. Why? It is my last crutch and my longest lasting bad habit. 


Here is how committed I am.  I wanted coffee after dinner.  I pulled up profit101.net and did straight leg crunches (episode 79). I did not have anyone to hold my legs, so I strapped them to the back of dinning room chair (that I weighted down the chair bottom first) and used my 5 pound ankle weights to strap my ankles to the chair. Not a perfect fix but it worked for me for the exercise that called for two people.  I did 2 sets of 30 straight leg crunches. Suddenly I really did not want the coffee anymore. 


I wanted water.  I drank some water (warm water slowly! I'd have drank Ken's Shamrock Slam but I am waiting for an answer as to where to get this product!).  I returned and did one more set of 30.  I drank serving of whey protein drink (because I did work the muscles... and chocolate... duh) mixed with water and fresh juiced spinach. Don't knock it. Fresh spinach juice is awesome!


Join me in using profit101.net to combat your urge to fall off of your Lent. Also follow him on twitter.


Don't forget to pray. This is Lent.


Please note, you can not pay to be on my blog. I only endorse products that I use and believe in. Thanks.

recipe and smart eating tips

song of the day: "Complicated" Avril Lavigne
mood: need a coffee IV


The "trendy" weight loss thing is to eat clean. Everyone is eating clean and there are now diet books on how to do it.  I call bullshit on it.  In order to eat "clean" you eat smart. Shop the exterior of the grocery store and buy real whole foods.  Fruits, veggies, nuts, milk, local meat (if you can get it) and assorted dairy. IF IT HAS AN EXPIRAION date... that is what you eat.  Avoid pre-packaged foods and GMO foods if possible.. Buy cheese that has to be cut or grated and not individual slices.  It really is not clean eating... it is smart eating.  Clean eating is just a money making scam.


I like to get the lotus food rice.  They are high in minerals that we lack in our diet.  Some are grown in volcanic areas.


Forbidden Rice (black rice) is an interesting character to add to your diet.  Looks like rat shit when you cook it. If you can get over the visual the texture is amazing. It feels like rice in your mouth but when you bite and chew it; you will find it as hardy as the texture of meat.  It can also be used as a meat replacement (vegans and vegetarians).


I cook one cup of rice (yields four servings cooked) according to the package instructions. Yes, this takes longer than regular rice to cook. Plan ahead.


in a frying pan dice one small white onion, grate one clove of garlic, grate one slice of crystalized ginger or fresh ginger root, and two tablespoons of organic butter.  I use salt free butter but I season with that pink salt... ugh... I can't remember what it is called. I need to run get some. sigh.  Anyway, season with salt and pepper to taste. Sauté the above ingredients and if you like (which I do) add some diced meat that is left over (Pork/beef/shrimp/chicken.. whatever) and I like to add snow peas that are fresh (in season... you want to wok like fry the snow peas in the mixture because you want them to be crunchy). Also, add a tablespoon of soy sauce. When the rice is cooked just dump the skillet into the rice and mix well. Serve hot.  It is also fun to add bullion powder to the rice water before it cooks. Season with a flavor that you like. Sometimes I just add whatever spices sound good to me... I just toss and pray it comes out good and usually it does.  I don't recommend Italian mix spices as they give it an odd taste.


Left over rice? Cool.  Over cook some white rice so it is like a mush.  Add it to (you have to eyeball this) the black rice mix and make a patty. I make mine oblong.  Anyway, put your patty in some hot coconut oil (enough to coat bottom of pan) and fry you a rice burger.  Wrap the rice burger in some long leafy lettuce and don't forget to garnish with shaved almonds before you roll it up. Makes a great lunch. I like it hot but I know people that like it cold. Weirdo's.  You can also use left over black rice in your sushi recipes.  It goes fantastic with fish.


you can make from scratch just about anything you buy packaged. Want to have a cheese spread? melt some grated cheese with condensed sweetened milk and pour into containers. Perfect and simple. It also goes further than cheese spreads and you can smart them up with diced tomatoes and onions or homemade salsa or mushrooms or whatever you want. I like to add guacamole mix powder and chunks of avocado to mine with a small diced onion. That is me. I grew up eating tex-mex so I like to make things of that nature.


when you cook... avoid as much store bought bread as possible. get you a bread machine and make it from scratch. It taste better, you can add what you want, it is more eye pretty, it smells better (duh... fresh), and it is a fun thing to do with the kids. If you buy a more expensive bread machine you can also make jellies and jams in it and have the best of both worlds.


pie is evil.
it is?
is it?


It really don't have to be.  Find a recipe for a tart crust.  Ohhhhhh... you see where I am going? Yea. Tart's are a NY and New England thing. Make your tart crust.  Poke a few holes.  Cover it about 1/4 inch thick with your homemade jelly. Add fresh sliced fruit (I try to make it look as pretty as possible) and spray some lemon juice on top. Bake according to the tart directions. Yes it will have calories in it but they are smart calories. Instead of white sugar use unrefined sugar or agave or honey in the tart recipe. Instead of flour use Spelt or rice flour or anything of that nature.


If you play in the kitchen, cooking is not a mundane chore.  It becomes fun.  You learn a lot about yourself and a lot about what you really like and don't like.


Example. Nobody in this house likes spinach (except me). Dumbasses.  Do you know HOW much spinach they eat? I dice it and add it to burgers. I juice it and add it to juices. I use the pulp from juicing to add to baked goods.  My family has about two servings of spinach or kale a day.  Sneaky bitch me.


Don't be afraid to add the kitchen sink.  Honest. We used to call it "Shit in a Pan" but now I have kids I just call it a casserole  ... just start adding leftovers to the crock pot with some broth or water and have a soup or stew.  Plenty of veggies too! Or add pasta and bake in the oven.


Use your stainless steel sink to your advantage.


in a clean sink add about a gallon of water and a cup of vinegar and a few squirts of fresh lemon (I just squeeze an entire lemon in my mix. Add to it dirty fruit (all fruit is dirty TBH). let your fresh fruit soak about fifteen minutes. Rinse it well.  You will honestly be grossed out at the residue you see floating in the water.  That is why I say a clean sink.  Fruit and veggies are gross and should be handled like it came from a hospital that has an MSRA infection running rampant.  Think about it.  People touch the fruit to see what is ripe. They smell it. They sneeze on it. Lot's of people do this with dirty hands or hands that were not washed after smoking or going to the bathroom.  THINK about it. WASH your fresh fruit and veggies.  I even wash fruit I know I am going to peel. WHY? because when you peel it you are pushing the peel down into the fruit and thus contaminating the meat inside. Except bananas.  I don't wash them. That is my only exception.


The point is to be smart. At first it will take time.  At first you will feel it is so expensive and complicated.  Guess what? When you quit buying the shit on the other 12 isles... it really is not expensive. When you use a food processor or a bread machine or Crock pot... what time? Those things basically are a god send.  Yes it will seem complicated... But your first science project was complicated too, amiright?  Matching your clothes and running a house is complicated.  Navigating traffic is complicated.  This really is not.  You just have to do like the other things and train your mind.  You are training your body to build muscle too... right?  You have not given up on the GYM have you?

no time

Song of the Day: "Menace" Five Finger death Punch 


mood:sick damn it


I hate getting sick. Everyone came home sick yesterday and today I've got the tireds.  I've no energy to workout or even run to the store for stuff to cook supper.

accountability

song of the day: Timber - Kesha and Pitbull
(Because IT is going DOWN)
Mood: feeling stoked


I am 42
I am overweight
I am an ex-smoker
I worked out today.


DID YOU?


Why not? I can do a mile at a walk in 28 minutes. 


We did our measurements today. I am down 13 inches and down 15 pounds. Doc is down 12.5 inches and he did not weigh in.


Hey ya'll, missing inches is motivation to go back to the gym tomorrow.  Put it this way, I could not wait to go to the gym today.


Even if you don't go to the gym... do me a favor... keep a log of what you eat every day. At the end of the week read it. Are you eating healthy or even close to balanced? How much saturated fat is in your diet? Calories are an evil thing.  Use your food as health care and don't let it slowly poison you to death.


I would love to give all the credit to working out.  But I did the above.  I was sick to my heart over what I was eating.  Honest. I know better. Let me repeat that... I KNOW BETTER.  I cut calories but I cut them the smart way.  I took out a lot of saturated fats and junk foods and deserts. I upped fresh fruit and veggies.  Not canned veggies, FRESH. Fresh is VIP because there is no preservatives in them. I added smart rice like what is sold by Lotus Foods.  I added fish and took away most red meats.  I eat my lunch on five crackers instead of a sandwich and chips.


Buy yourself a juicer.  Yea, there are pro's and con's.  But you can add to your fresh fruit and veggies.  I take the pulp and put it in our baked goods and breads.  You still get the fiber if you use the pulp too.  Know what is super yummy? Instead of 8 ounces of water juice you 3 peaches and a bundle of fresh spinach.  Dilute what you get with about 8-10 ounces of water (you want the juice and the water to equal about 16 ounces or two servings). Mix the juice with two scoops of your whey (I use the chocolate by BodyTech sold at Vitaman Shoppe) and stick it in the blender with 6 ice cubes. Two servings (one for Doc and one for me). Taste great and has the right stuff in it to stop the post workout trauma to your muscles.


Why a whey protein drink.  Your muscles crave it.  When you work out you build up lactic acid (that causes the stiffness) and the lactic acid will eat away at your muscles because it just sits there. They whey drinks help to flush this out.  It is NOT for just body builders.  If you do not want to get stiff, add this to your diet.  Be sure to account for it in your calorie intake.


Another good weight loss tip is to manage your eating.  Eat your biggest meal at breakfast or wake up time.  And tapper them down. You should eat five to six small meals a day.  This fuels your metabolism.  YES I know this.  And YES I became a coffee for breakfast person (over the years).  Yes, I have changed this.  The results are up there. 


Also, when you are working out, be sure to do exercises that complement each other.  segregate yourself. Upper body one day and lower the next.


I was reading on FB about a friend that gives up when her back or shoulder go out.  Ok.  Think about your body as a machine.  One part will not work right if the parts around it don't work right.  Like the gears on a watch or the timing belt on a car. 


Shoulder issues: make sure you are working the Pec's (chest) and the Delts (upper back/shoulder) the same day you are doing shoulder presses and arm workouts.  Don't work the triceps without working the biceps.  Exercise smart.


Lower back issues: yes yes yes indeedy.  Who don't say... oh my back hurts? Especially those of us who are overweight (OK I have an excuse because I broke my back and arthritis set in... it don't stop me from working out). To avoid lower back pain strengthen your abs and gluteus Maximus when you are exercising. By strengthen I mean squats for the glutes and crunches for the abs.  I tie them in with my leg workouts. I also spend 20 minutes a day on the heavy boxing bag. 


Boxing bag workouts. I firmly believe in a solid core. Right now, mine is solid fat.  But back in December I bought the girls a heavy and speed bag because they wanted to join a local MMA gym.  I got to thinking about it.  When I was at my fittest, I worked out with the boxing bags.  I researched this.  It turns out that if you are executing you strikes correctly then you are working your entire core.  Twenty minutes on the bag will burn about 250 calories.  That is a lot.  30 minutes at a fast walk on the treadmill only burns 70.  Strike 15 seconds and dodge and protect 15 seconds is how I do it. Guess what? I was out of breath at about five minutes the first week.  Now I do 20 minutes and breathe like I never smoked and sweat like a whore on 2 cent day.


I see I went and got all wordy.  I am just sharing some tips with you on how I am doing it.  How your trainer or doctor or you want to do it is up to you as long as you are on this journey too.


Good luck and don't forget to be accountable to YOURSELF.  You can lie to anyone but you cannot lie to yourself.