~A view thru my eyes~

Hmmm

2011-07-12T20:55:00.001-05:00

Rescue group just emailed me what the discrepency is. Don't make loosing your dog any better but maybe the issue can be fixed.

There are no words 2 explain laughter.

2011-07-02T13:12:00.001-05:00

Watch "On The Rocks - Bad Romance" on YouTube

Awoke with a start and it wasnt st nick

2011-05-25T12:10:00.001-05:00

Crack boom bam...I jump from the bed near FIVE am on Tuesday morning...rush to the window...throw back the curtain and start screaming for the kids TO GET TO the bathroom. I chased them in there and threw a mattress over their head and told them to HANG ON...to each other..the mattress ...whatever!

They said it was an EF2 in surrounding areas but said nothing about here. It landed a portion of the tree in my parking spot and up against the house. INCHES from the house.

There are times in my life when I have said I fell in a pile of shit and came out smelling like a rose. This is one. Let's rewind to the night before. Kids and I ran out for an errand. When we came home...I overshot my parking spot. So I parkd in Doc S's. He was at work. I brought my keys out 2X when I walked the dog with the intent to move it...and fianally resolved that HE could park in one of the 2 remaining spots when he got off work in the morning.

The tree was placed in my parking spot. God was looking out for us!

We spent a few days in STL area

2011-05-25T12:01:00.001-05:00

...we had a few unexpected days of downtime in STL. We were visiting Doc S's dad in the hospitial. He is in critical condition. If you pray may I ask for your supportive prayers. Thanks.

The baseball season distraction

2011-05-25T11:57:00.001-05:00

As Phineas is pointing out... baseball season has reared its head and we are full swinging STL Cardinal fans.

In other news. Doc S bought me the complete works od Aristotle at the used bookstore the other day. Been busy busy busy reading. Ahhhhh brainfood.

Happy Mother's day to all

2011-05-08T20:45:00.000-05:00

to the men

http://youtu.be/DOKuSQIJlog

to the ladies

http://youtu.be/80olbDws8r0

ahhhhh here we go again

2011-05-02T07:23:00.005-05:00

Song of the day, "Ode to Harry" M.O.D (Method of Destruction)
Read about Harry here.

Quote of the day, "NO" from Nissan Headquarters.

I have not driven my can in 9 months. I have a lot to say on this matter but having made two post's, I really don't feel like blogging on it. The long and the short is DO NOT buy a NISSAN. THE COMPANY DOES NOT STAND BEHIND THEIR PRODUCT even AFTER they say they will. THE DEALERSHIP (Rivergate Nissan) does not stand behind the words of their service manager promising 2 years ago that the repair (FUEL PUMP) would be covered if it did fail.

I imagine this had to do with the ISSUES in Japan from their natural disaster. All I can ask of my readers and the general public is to NOT purchase a NISSAN and to trade your NISSAN in for a different make of a vehicle. I have 9 people already sworn to do this and two of whom have already traded or sold theirs.

So I have a car I can't afford to fix. And we are so upside down in the loan that we can not trade out of it. HELP. SOS

Happy Anniversary of sorts

2011-05-02T07:01:00.004-05:00

Song of the day, "Darlington County" Bruce Springsteen

"The Cumberland River has crested at 12 feet above flood level" Scott Potter, Director of water services, Metro Nashville, Davidson County, Tennessee.

If you are reading this and live in the metro area or one of the countless counties that were affected by the May 2010 floods, congratulations you survived. We have reached our benchmark one year anniversary since the historic day.

Many homes, including ours, were affected by the flood. Many homes, including ours, is still under a rebuild situation. FEMA did not offer enough money (well actually when you have to appeal 2x and beg for assistance, they don't offer a damn thing and by the time they helped it was to late) to make the repairs. By the time they did help the original damaged had spread. They refused Mitigation repairs.

Our foundation is unstable because we had to fix the bathroom floors where the water seeped in. We had to do this before we had an issue with mold. This took precedence over fixing the foundation. FEMA awarded us $1600 to cover the damage to the air duct vents, to dry out the crawls space and fix damage to the underlay (that prevents exposure to Radon), repair the foundation, and fix the areas (bathroom's and back kitchen wall) where water had seeped in. The reality was it was enough to buy the supplies to fix the floors and lay one floor down. They said we could take a SBA loan. I am happy we elected not to as the people that did are being told to now REPAY IT or have their homes taken from them. REALLY?

FEMA and the insurance company refused to help us with food, and our driveway, and the water moccasins. Having no power for extended days, the food in the freezer (and everything in the fridge) had to be tossed as we do not currently own a generator. The driveway was washed out, as a matter of a fact the FEMA inspectors had to park at the neighbors and walk in because they would not cross the raging river of our driveway. See May 2010 post for pic's of that beast. It cost over $2000 to fix the driveway. There is also an issue with the retaining wall in back of the house. That is crumbling. But that is considered mitigation and FEMA would not assist in that. The other side affect of the flood were the influx of water moccasins. One of the 5 deadly snakes in the USA and we had a nest of over 50.

FEMA allowed us to live an entire year in hell and terror. Might as well live in a 3rd world country.

If our county received monies for mitigation they did not fix the county road in front of our home. The road shows signs of imminent fatigue and I await the day it collapses so we can sue.

We can't sell our home like it is. We do not have the money to fix it and there is NO aid for people. Although the GRAND OL OPERY received 20 BILLION dollars in FEMA aid. IS that right or fair on some scale? There are thousands of people in the situation we are in and they gave GOO 20 BILLION and Gaylord entertainment BRAGGED about it.

Zippity DO Dah

2011-05-02T06:38:00.005-05:00

Song of the day, "In the air tonight" Phil Collins

Quote of the day, "Osama Bin Laden is Dead" Headlines nationwide.

Last night President Obama announced to the US people that Osama Bin Laden is dead. That he had been killed a week ago in a drone air strike. The US military confiscated the body and performed a DNA test against his sister's brain.

I have a lot of feelings about this and possibly none are good.

I would love to celebrate and be the sheep behind closed eyes. However, my brain don't work like that. I am under no illusion of nationwide grandeur. We need to understand that although this appears to be a good thing, the man behind the terror attacks on the US has been removed from existence of life; but we need to consider the hierarchy of government.

The Romans introduced the structured governments that we know today. Many places use similar governments. Removing one person from the government, vacates a spot for another to take his or her place. A prime example being our government. When JFK was assassinated, Lyndon B. Johnson took over the position of Commander and Chief until the next election. Because the structure of our government is set up like that. Please do not fool yourself. Terrorist are not much different.

The second in the line of command for al-Qaeda is Ayman al Zawahiri. This man has been in training since he was 15 years old. He was born on June 19, 1951. You do the math. He has been a terrorist in training for as long as I have been alive. You can read more on him HERE.

Please as you celebrate, understand, this is a false sense of security. Our security levels has been elevated to ORANGE for a reason. Either our informants have notified us of talks of retaliation on the matter of OSB or something else.

When they first announced that the President would speak last night, we firmly believed that this had to do with Qaddafi. That he had swore a vengeance for the loss of his son and grand children. Maybe he was killed to and we will hold the body on ice until closer to election to make it look good. And claim he was killed in a different Nato air strike. The government did withhold critical information for over a week on OSB.

Keep your wool, my eyes can see.

2 RECIPES TO SHARE

2011-04-22T19:47:00.003-05:00

Baby Wipe Recipe

YOU WILL NEED
wipe sized container that seals.
soft paper towels we use Viva by Kleenex
Organic (really your choice, recommend Aveeno) baby wash
Organic (again your choice regular or organic) baby oil. I like to use sunflower oil because it is natural. Baby oil is scented Mineral oil which is a petroleum by product. Again your choice of oil but you want something lite. Jojoba oil is also a good choice.
water
Rosemary essential oil

With a carpet knife or good kitchen knife cut the paper towel roll in half. If you can work then center roll out that makes the wipes easier to use. I use the paper towels that have 3 sizes per sheet and tear each individual one.

I use 1/4 cup of oil and lotion. mix together in a bowl with 20 drops of Rosemary essential oil. The Rosemary oil will cut down on bacteria growth without having to use a preservative. The recipe calls for equal parts of water (boil and stir into the mixture) but I have a hard time mixing oil with water so I lightly spritz the paper towels so they are barely damp.

now put 1/4 lotion solution in the bottom of the container. put half the paper towels in. put 1/2 the lotion solution in the center. top with remaining paper towels and top with remaining lotion solution.

CLOSE box. Turn upside down. every ten minutes flip the box to other side until wipes are saturated all the way through.

This product will go bad after about a month because it contains no chemicals so don't make it until you are ready to use it. Babies like warm wipes. DO NOT put a wipe warmer on this concoction because it will encourage it to go bad sooner. You CAN hold the wipes in your warm mommy hands for a few seconds before use to take the chill off.

Diaper Cream
This takes 2 weeks to make but you make 8 4oz jars!
STEP 1
2 cups calendula flower
1 cup comfrey leaf
1 cup chamomile flower
1 cup lavender flower
4 cups of oil ... olive, grapeseed, or sweet almond work the best

Place the Herbs and oil in a glass jar. Cover tightly with a lid. Place in a warm sunny place (like a picture window for 2 weeks.

STEP 2
set up a double boiler (after the 2 weeks have passed... it is OK if it goes longer than 2 weeks!)
Using a strainer lined with cheesecloth, strain the oil mixture into the double boiler. (gently wrap the cheese cloth around the herbs and squeeze as much oil out as you can.) heat on low setting for 20-45 minutes. If you see "floaters" that escaped the first strainer, when mixture is cooled to room temp, strain it again!

Back in the double boiler warm mixture to 150 degrees and add 1/4 cup of beeswax for each cup of oil. Stir occasionally to make sure beeswax is melting. Either buy beeswax pellets or grate it off of a block. I put in the ratio to the oil in case you need to scale back the recipe to make a smaller amount.

Once the beeswax is melted take a tablespoon and dip it so there is a small amount pooled in the spoon and place on a paper towel in the freezer for about 5 minutes. pull out and check it. If the consistency feels too thick add more oil an ounce at a time. If the mixture seems to thin add more beeswax.

When you get the consistency you want add a tablespoon of Rosemary Essential oil or Orris root (root of white iris dried ground and grated) IF you have a special scent you want for your ointment now is the time to add the essential oil or scent. You will need about a tablespoon for entire mixture but start with a dropper full and stir, then smell... add it to your sense of smell. let the mixture cool. beat it every 10 minutes with a wire whisk to prevent separation. When at room temp pour into your 4 ounce containers. Refrigerate unopened containers or give to friends with babies.

Once again, this is a natural/organic product. IT WILL GO bad within a month. If the mixture turns color or starts to smell different, toss it.

Favorite Christmas Story/Baseball Story

2011-04-11T23:32:00.002-05:00

Song of the day, "Tears in Heaven" Eric Clapton

Quote of the day, "Cooperstown is the Greatest place on Earth" Bob Feller

Back in the day when I worked two jobs and went to college full time, oh and when I still had a heart and gave a crap about the world and it's going ons'. An curious thing happened. I was working my 2nd shift job at a gas station and one of the veteran employees came in and he said, "Jenn I need to tell you what I did on my days off." I said OK and listened and wept as Rich told me this story.

Background, Rich is a lifelong resident in Saugerties NY and a Mets fan. His neighbor and good friend Smitty had a son born with a genetic disorder where all his organs were in the mirror image of normal organs. All backwards even the heart was backwards and on the wrong side of the chest. Smitty was also the chief of police. His son had been entered in the "Make a Wish Foundation" and his number was up. He was 11 at the time and we will call him Little Smitty.

Little Smitty was not expected to live to see one say nothing about making it to the unheard of 11 years old. But a body born defective can only mature so far and then begin to compromise the promise of tomorrow. I know not the outcome of Little Smitty as I left New York and I weep as I write this.

His make a wish was drawn. His wish was to see a baseball game live. He loved the Yankee's. He is forgiven. He was only a kid. Boomer, Jeter, Strawberry, were all fresh. Joe was still catching and Darrell hadn't been busted for cocaine. And it was a night game in the fall. I remember there was the fear that little Smitty would come down with something.

A limo came to the house and took the Smittys and Rich to the ballgame. When they got there Little Smitty (not the entire family, just the one that counted) was invited to the dugout. He got to watch the game from the dugout! Lucky 4 star word. Joe talked baseball trash with him and Jeter tossed a ball with him and Boomer told him he could be a Yankee one day if he got his little butt better. They made the kids life. The Yankee's made a memory for me. They embraced this little boy and gave him the game of his life. They even won that night.

There were more words than that. The Story from Rich went well into the night. He kept remembering little things that they could see from their prime seats. In the end, it was good. Real Good. Little Smitty even got a Christmas Card that year signed from everyone on the team.

Cute Baseball Story

2011-04-11T23:11:00.002-05:00

Song of the day: Take me out to the ball game

Quote of the day: "A baseball game is simply a nervous breakdown divided into nine innings." ~Earl Wilson (More Baseball quotes)

I played ball. I liked to get dirty. I liked the smell of clay soaked into sweat soaked skin. And that was only the first day I tried out way back in 3rd grade. Yes. You used to have to try out to make a ball team. Back when we were not a sensitive crowd. Back when there was no crying in baseball.

I can recall 3rd grade. Tryouts were up and coming. I'd been practicing with the boys on Juniper street in 29 Palms. Baseball season was the only time we took breaks from playing war and shooting each other up with BB guns. I had run into the 5th grade teacher, Mr Gimby, and he was singing "Take me out to the ball game" and there were a group of kids do-whopping around with him. I watched the whole course of the song. They finished up and he addressed my by common name, "Hey Kid, why didn't you sing along?" I introduced myself and informed him that I just made the team at Knotts Berry Park. Then I drew in breath of deep and blurted the horrible awful truth, "I didn't know the Dodgers had a theme song."

Let me back up a second. I was not stupid by any means. I was in the top of my class as far as brains and common sense went. I watched Baseball and the President on TV and once in awhile Felix the Cat. I'd just never heard the song.

"Well Kid (ignoring I had a name now) it is Baseballs Anthem and not the Dodgers theme song. But we all know the only team that plays good ball is the Dodgers."

I was not one to speak back to adults or grown up's in general. Spanking was allowed in schools, teachers were Gods, and parents were to be listened to and not argued with. I spoke. "I favor The Indians. They played good ball last week." And they had. We had a minor debate about players and stat's and he started to walk away.

"Hey Mr Gimby, will you teach me that song one day?" And he promised to jot the words down and pass them to me at recess if I promised to only sing it with the "Dodgers" and not some ambiguous team in his presence. I agreed.

Now as an adult I think of the song from time to time and you know what? I am an Avid Cardinals fan. Converted from being an Indians fan for over 30 years! To this day the words only sound right in my head with the Dodgers as the team of fame. It is their "theme" song.

The words he wrote down and I memorized were:

Take me out to the ball game
Take me out to the crowd
Buy me some peanuts and cracker jacks
I don't care if I never come back
Because it's Root Root Root for the DODGERS
if they don't win it's a shame
Because IT's ONE TWO THREE STRIKES YOUR OUT
in the old ball game!

Inventory trailer

2011-04-05T13:14:00.000-05:00

AUTISM AWARENESS DAY

2011-04-02T21:56:00.004-05:00

BOOK OF THE DAY - all cats have asperger syndrome

BLUE LIGHT FOR AUTISM AWARENESS I am #3267

PRODUCTS to support Autism

AUTISM SOCIETY

AUTISM SPEAKS

I will hopefully have a web domain up and running by Friday. IDK things suddenly in the air.

STL APRIL FOOLS PRANK

2011-03-31T15:59:00.001-05:00

I had an entire script planned out but when she started to cry I let her off of the hook!

wedding frustrations

2011-03-27T17:58:00.005-05:00

Song of the day: March of the Penguins (no really, was that a song?)

Quote of the day: Drama.... I can't take it.

I want to get married on April 1 because that is our anniversary. I have been voted out by everyone with the thought it would be a mockery of marriage. No really. They don't get me. Why is it a mockery? Because I am a wise ass. I can't help it. I have always done April Fools pranks and I am not going to stop at 39. But that don't mean I am thinking of Marriage in derogatory terms. April 1 fits my personality. And NO ONE would forget that date.

He thinks 11.11.11 would work because he would never forget the date. Hmmm. 4.1.11 sounds better. More information that way. Bwahahaha.

Any date Ideas?

Moving on to the next marriage conundrum. Location. First my want. I want to get married at Bush stadium in St Louis at a Cardinals game. If I were rich I could even get an entire baseball theme going there. IT WOULD BE AWESOME. Mini body shutter.

He thinks we should get married here in our little church with our great congregation and have Brother Fred marry us. And I have no problem with that. Other than my infantile urge to be me. And me is baseball. And me is funny.

If we get married in upstate NY then my old and tried and true friends can all be apart of it. I don't know why, I never got invited to a single one of their weddings... but... I waited. This is not wedding 2 or 5 or 8 for me. I waited until it was right. Until my heart said I could not live without this man in my existence. And what a great feeling that is. So, yes, I would like to share it with the one true set of people I loved and still love.

Problem is then Mom would be involved. And I love her, she is my mother. But I don't know if I love her enough to have her come to my wedding. I am still mad at the 8 year absence from my life. I am still angry with her telling me when I was preg with Amanda that I should have an adoption because she didn't want to be a grandmother at 44. I am still mad that she didn't talk to me until my grandmother died because I had the audacity to have a child. You know what? I was 27. It was my choice and I don't regret a thing about Amanda.

So, mom is a big problem. I am crying as I write. Every little girl secretly wants their mom's approval. And I do want my mom there I just don't want her to be so mean. She won't talk to me again now that she knows we are going to get married. She is probably afraid I am going to expect them to buy the dress. Well... I am the first child and this is MY first wedding. But no, I wouldn't ask her for a pot to piss in.

Other options? I am taking suggestions. Seeing I won't get my way no matter what I do. Someone will be mad.

Then there is the whole cost thing in general. I got the ring on Black Friday. I have been looking. We really don't have the money to get married. We are living paycheck to paycheck and he is the only one working. He makes about 60K a year to take care of this and this tiny house.

This house is hell. This house is punishment for something I did somewhere in my life that was so awful. And I don't know what. It is so small I can't keep it clean because there is no where to put anything. I am terrorized by the water moccasins that infest the creek and scared to death one of my kids are going to get dead by one. My neighbors an ass that lets his fucking dog run loose and knock me and my kids down. We cant sell it because the market now is for the house not the land and the people that are looking at the house want to buy the house for the value of the house and throw the 7 acres in for free. We owe big money on this shitbox. He tells me to look at homes. I grew up in a really big house. I looked and fell in love with a home we will never be able to afford (unless by an act of the Lords's Kindness).

So we are stuck. I am in hell. Mentally because of the cost of things, the size of this house, and the snakes. Not being able to find work really don't help. I do want to get married. I just don't think it will happen this year.

Because somewhere I failed

2011-03-27T17:43:00.003-05:00

Song of the day: Penny Lane

Quote of the day: Momma's got a fat ass. Lucy Ganoe

And I thought I was doing right
By Jenn Ganoe

Ever have a day where the pillow looked at you and said, "No, you don't really want to go out there?" Well me either but I wish it did today.

Welcome to my world. My real readers know that I have two children that fall into the Autism Spectrum. And kids like this take many things literally. However, I am like Sarah Palin, and I love my retarded babies. I can say that. They are mine. If you say it I will duck tape your mouth shut and hang you from the Brooklyn Bridge by your toenails.

In second 31 before I poured my coffee the incident happened.

We try not to swear. We try to use alternative means of it. Sometimes categories... Oh 5 star word. Sometimes alternatives.... what a donkey. Spelling is no longer an option but partial or misspelling sometimes works. SH is shit. F-bomb rhymes with duck. Sometimes make believe words... oh googlie goop. And sometimes sign language... ie pointing to something like your ass . We switch it up so certain small children don't learn potty words.

Today. They could have at LEAST let me have my dayum coffee. Today Amanda (my 12 year old going on Paris Hilton and Taylor Swift) said... "I was just thinking that you are a wise thing behind your back."

Cut me some slack I was still doing the funky wake up thing.

I turned and looked. "Table?"

Amanda, "No it is attached to you."

Something behind my back that is attached to me.

NOT THINKING. "My ass? Are you implying that my Ass is so big that it sticks out so far behind my back that... are you saying I have a big ass?" Sleepy now Angry mommy totally forgot the first part of the discussion.

Lucy begins to chant, "momma's got a big old ass! She said she does!"

Amanda, "No. but you are a wise ass."

I took my coffee and hid in my room for 20 minutes. I came out to be greeted by Lucy still singing her song.

GRRRRRRRR

Ooh look who has a book coming out

2011-03-27T03:22:00.001-05:00

Albert Brooks

Products of the day

2011-03-26T12:42:00.001-05:00

Today is Sweat Pea scent. In process is Glycerin Soap, powder perfume, and body powder.... pic's to arrive later!

Special Notes on Products Listed

2011-03-25T14:31:00.002-05:00

The products have no added preservatives other than Vitamin E and in some there will be Iris Root powder. This means the shelf life is one month at room temperature and up to 6 months if kept in the refrigerator. This applies to all personal hygiene products.

Listy List of the Awesomeness to come: (44 products so this is only partial and what we are working on... erm... what I am working on...)

After Shave for Men..... oooooohhhh ahhhhhh! So, SOFT!

Rub on (tube the size-ish of a glue stick) Shaving Bump soother. You KNOW what area's THAT is for. But natural scent of the butters so, MEN can use it on their nasty shaving burns!

Mouthwash... I might just post that recipe. I like it. But not sure if I want to fool with packaging and selling.

Soaps.
Both Lye and Non-Lye soaps in many shapes, colors, sizes, and purposes.
Liquid soap (MAYBE) that can be used for liquid hand soap and dish washing (in the sink) soap.
Loofah Bar soap. I used to make these and couldn't keep them in stock. They are pretty and exfoliating at the same time!
Grime remover soap for men.
Pretty grime remover soap for us girly girls... will be the Lychee scent and pinkish purple. Hey... I don't wanna smell like no dang man! Great for the girls that garden or just get dirty! ALSO works great to get crayon off the wall!

Soaps have long been a pet project of mine. I just don't like store bought stuff. They look cute in the guest bathroom and they give your guests a reason to "lift" a keep sake from a party! Meh. No.... you never did that.... your way to cool. RIGHT.

Lotion wipes. Because I care. They are so nice for the quick refresh. ESP if you get sweaty palms and can smell the salt. MY personal pet peeve. I don't like smelling nervous and hate it more when someone touches me and smells like they are. I keep a few in a zip lock bag in my purse at all times. Yes they are a LOT like a baby wipe but they do not have the "alcohol" in them.

Black Salve. Yep. Stinky but works! Me and my awesomeness. Will be sold in 2 ounce jars. A LITTLE goes a LONG way. Most stores sell tubes that are like 1/2 an ounce and this stuff has a shelf life of 2 years because of the activated charcoal.

All sorts of Salves.

Emu Oil.

All sorts of essential oils (some are brewing now).

Maybe Pure Vanilla Extract. I need to look into the local and federal law on selling a food item.

Recipe book (the how to for your entertainment purpose. Mind you... the first few batches...eth..don't always work out. Persistence makes perfect).

and much much more! When I am ready to start selling, I will have a secure dotcom address and you will be able to pay through a secure bank server or paypal.

NOTE ON SHIPPING- to reduce shipping and handling cost... your products will come in recycled boxes. Sorry, I see NO NEED to add to our carbon footprints by buying fancy product specif boxes with my cute logo on it.

NOTE on pricing - yes. Products may seem high. BUT. They are concentrated. I can add 80% water to them and sell them .... I'd rather not. Use less.

NOTE on product containers - Products will be packaged in new containers and not the ones listed here. Lotions will be in plastic containers. In a pinch between orders of packaging I might purchase "Mason Jars" and use them. If your product comes in a MASON JAR and you wish to help reduce our carbon footprint, I will offer fifty cents off your next product if you return the Mason Jar for me to clean and sanitized and reuse for your product order. Yeah, because I will have to make a fresh batch for this... the shipping and receiving of your product will depend on when you get the jar to me! Keep the lid or recycle as they don't hold up more than a time or two. Or wash and sanitize your own jar and I can send product in some sort of a bladder bag. I need to see what is out there. Maybe freezer bags. I don't know for sure yet.

Little one wants to practice her cute little pink learning thing on the computer so I got to go. Pictured below.... her number 2... isn't learning awesome!

PRODUCTS IN PROCESS - Lotions

2011-03-25T14:03:00.002-05:00

Above: Make Up remover... similar to cold cream
ALSO works great on FEET!

Olive Oil and Cocoa Butter Lotion: No it is not pretty.
Non-Toxic pink dye and green color of x-virgin olive oil make... mauve. Need to work on color.
VERY CONCENTRATED. If you want the store brand feel? Apply to damp areas or apply and spritz area damp and pat dry.
AND always remember.... a little goes a LONG way.

Lotion pics.... Lotion in Malibu tubes in this pic were watered down but still came out concentrated. Which is fine, I am not selling fancy water.

And because the LOTION BUTTER is my 3rd child
It gets another honorable mention!
I am so addicted to this one. I have used half a 4 ounce container in 2 weeks! I use it after every shower and sometimes sneak some more to rub into my hands just because it makes everything so silky to touch! This recipe I used Sunflower oil, natural cocoa butter, Shea butter, and avocado butter. The scent pictured is Lilac but the one I am using is Lychee Tangerine! I know it is the smell that is as addicting. I have purchased 2 Lychee Tree's and when they start bearing fruit.... mmmmm baby! Nothing sweeter in the world than a Lychee berry. And the smell.... they will so be indoor tree's!

PRODUCTS IN PROCESS Body Butter

2011-03-25T13:57:00.006-05:00

Body Butter

No preservatives. Has a shelf life of one month left out or 6 months if kept in refrigerator.
This is great if your Hubby like to give massages! Melts on contact with body head and moisturizes skin. Also great for elbows, knees, and the bottom of the feet! At bedtime, apply to clean patted dry feet and hands and put on white socks and thin white cotton gloves. Wake up in the morning to Satin Hands and feet that last all day (under normal hand washing conditions. Don't hold up well to harsh soaps or hand sanitizers).

PRODUCTS IN PROCESS

2011-03-25T13:51:00.005-05:00

What is THAT? WOMAN have you lost your mind? Is nothing sacred in modern conveniences?

NOPE NOPE NOPE. Do yourself a favor and READ the ingredients in you dish washing powder. What you have here is a safer alternative. Do you really want to drink and eat after toxic residue? I don't! I don't want my kids to either. I also want to reduce my carbon footprint on our "recycled" water supply.

So, YUP, you got it

Dish Washing Powder for the dishwasher.
Add 1/2 cup of vinegar to the rinse cycle.

PRODUCTS IN PROCESS

2011-03-25T13:37:00.005-05:00

Uth no... I'd rather not sweat!
Really? You want breast cancer too? The stuff in Antiperspirants has been linked to 8% of breast cancer diagnosis. Higher in women that have Breast Cancer running in their families. The plan here is not to make a profit but to protect you. All proceeds will be donated to the Susan G. Koman Foundation .

**warnings and notes**
When you first switch from Antiperspirant to a natural Deodorant please keep in mind that your body will need to detox. You are after all applying this to an area where there is a lymph node. What has happened to me was not pretty! First: Ewww YUCK... you sweat. Nasty... OMG I just ran a marathon sweat. It is thick and stinky and just gross. Second: You break out. Yep. Looks like you have some weird contagious disease. (Tip... Buy my lotion butter... it helps ease this step. Apply generously!) Third: because it is sensitive and your body is detoxing it burns when it breaks out.

It took me 2 weeks to detox. Now... I hardly sweat at all and when I get warm the smell of the deodorant is great and relaxing. Having a "Hot Day"... really simple. GO TO the bathroom... wet a paper towel or take a lotion wipe or baby wipe... pat don't rub... the area clean and dry (bacteria causes odor) and apply another pea size amount to the crease of your arm pit. Really that is the only place you actually sweat. No need to do the long pit strokes because the commercials tell you too! That is waste! SIX weeks into it I have only used about a third of a 4 ounce jar. And I do HOT things.

Please excuse the misspelling on product. I had Mandy helping me and well... she is 12 and can spell Tiger Blood and Winning.... LOL.... but the technical things are difficult at times.

PRODUCTS IN PROCESS

2011-03-25T13:29:00.004-05:00

EWWWWwwwwWEeeeWwww Jenny G that looks gross you want me to do what with it?

Wash your clothes with it. Yep. That is what I said. There are no chemicals in this so it looks awful. But it smells great and never have I had anything clean so good before. I could add binders and make it a pretty yellow gel... but why contaminate your skin anymore than need be?

There is also a powder variety that is perfect for lightly soiled loads.

BOTH PRODUCTS ARE LOW SUDS SO GOOD FOR THEM FANCY SMANCY he WASHERS!
and not to worry when I start selling the liquid I will purchase fancy containers like the ones crowding grocery store shelves. But for now... I have no shame in recycling containers! RECYCLE REUSE RE-PURPOSE it is good for the environment!

PRODUCTS IN PROCESS

2011-03-25T13:14:00.007-05:00

Bath Salts - Natural combination of sea salt and Epsom salt with citrus scent and non-toxic coloring. Not to worry, these won't get you high if you smoke them (re:Bath Salts getting pulled because of Psychedelic affect) but they will give you a spa like bath that leaves your skin naturally conditioned!

What is Lotion Butter and WHY do I need it? Lotion Butter is a concentrated lotion with corn starch. You need it because traditional powder is TOXIC and Talc has been proven to cause cancer. The lotion butter goes on slick like lotion and melts into your skin from your body temperature but it dries like a powder. Great for "crevices" like where your legs meet your torso and where "chubby rolls" rub. Oh yea... and it smells GREAT.

new new new

2011-03-17T23:41:00.003-05:00

Pictures and prices to come.

Back to making Lotion and Creams and Soaps. A full list and pic's of homemade natural products will be available soon!

Sometimes there are no words to explain Cats

2011-03-15T13:51:00.000-05:00

Petition

2011-02-20T22:33:00.002-06:00

normally I would not get involved with stuff like this. However, I have family in the military and come from a long line of people that served. This is a case that happened close to our home in Tennessee. I ask that you please click the link and sign the online petition. THANKS

Petition to accept calls for Military Families while at work if the family member is overseas.

Just a warning... it is coming

2011-02-12T19:13:00.002-06:00

unknown author but awsome poem

2011-02-11T06:34:00.000-06:00

I was shocked, confused, bewildered
As I entered Heaven's door,
Not by the beauty of it all,
...Nor the lights or its decor.

...But it was the folks in Heaven
Who made me sputter and gasp--
The thieves, the liars, the sinners,
The alcoholics and the trash.

There stood the kid from seventh grade
Who swiped my lunch money twice.
Next to him was my old neighbor
Who never said anything nice.

Bob, who I always thought
Was rotting away in hell,
Was sitting pretty on cloud nine,
Looking incredibly well.

I nudged Jesus, 'What's the deal?
I would love to hear Your take.
How'd all these sinners get up here?
God must've made a mistake.

'And why is everyone so quiet,
So somber - give me a clue.'
'Hush, child,' He said,
'they're all in shock.
No one thought they'd be seeing you.'

JUDGE NOT!!

Remember...Just going to church doesn't make you a
Christian any more than standing in your garage makes you a car.

Every saint has a PAST...
Every sinner has a FUTURE!
Now it's your turn... Share this poem.

Life without God is like an unsharpened pencil - It has no point!

Super Bowl Empty Seat

2011-02-08T09:16:00.001-06:00

A man had 50 yard line tickets for the Super Bowl. As he sits down, a man comes down and asked the man if anyone is sitting in the seat next to him.

"No", he said, "the seat is empty".
...
"This is incredible", said the man. "Who in their right mind would have a seat like this for the Super Bowl, the biggest sporting event in the world, and not use it ?"

Somberly, the man says, "Well... the seat actually belongs to me. I was supposed to come here with my wife, but she passed away. This is the first Super Bowl we have not seen together since we got married in 1967."

"Oh I'm sorry to hear that. That's terrible. But couldn't you find someone else - a friend or relative or even a neighbor to take the seat?"

The man shakes his head, "No. They're all at the funeral."

A new reason to goto the Doc... heh

2011-02-06T14:23:00.001-06:00

Visit msnbc.com for breaking news, world news, and news about the economy

OH CATS

2011-02-06T14:22:00.001-06:00

Visit msnbc.com for breaking news, world news, and news about the economy

LOL cat fail...listen to hubby after I say huh?

2011-02-03T18:26:00.001-06:00

Cat blogging via the Lord...

2011-02-03T18:23:00.000-06:00

The Pastor saw that a kitten had climbed up a tree in his backyard and then was afraid to come down. The pastor coaxed, offered warm milk, etc.

The kitty would not come down. The tree was not sturdy enough to climb, so the pastor decided that if he tied a rope to his car and pulled it until the tree bent down, he could then reach up and get the kitten.

That's what he did, all the while checking his progress in the car. He then figured if he went just a little bit further, the tree would be bent sufficiently for him to reach the kitten. But as he moved the car a little further forward, the rope broke.

The tree went 'boing!' and the kitten instantly sailed through the air - out of sight. (minus LL's laughing)

The pastor felt terrible. He walked all over the neighborhood asking people if they'd seen a little kitten. No. Nobody had seen a stray kitten. So he prayed, 'Lord, I just commit this kitten to your keeping,' and went on about his business.

A few days later he was at the grocery store, and met one of his church members. He happened to look into her shopping cart and was amazed to see cat food. This woman was a cat hater and everyone knew it, so he asked her, 'Why are you buying cat food when you hate cats so much?'

She replied, 'You won't believe this,' and then told him how her little girl had been begging her for a cat, but she kept refusing. Then a few days before, the child had begged again, so she finally told her little girl, 'Well, if God gives you a cat, I'll let you keep it.'

She told the pastor, 'I watched my child go out in the yard, get on her knees, and ask God for a cat. And really, Pastor, you won't believe this, but I saw it with my own eyes. A kitten suddenly came flying out of the blue sky, with its paws outspread, and landed right in front of her.'

sleeping cat fight

2011-01-29T21:16:00.002-06:00

Sleeping cat fight.... LOLOL.

Our personal LOL cats.

2011-01-29T21:08:00.004-06:00

HANGING THE CHRISTMAS LIGHTS
YOUR DOING IT WRONG

BUT MOM... I wanna jump in

His left front paw is on my toe
His right back leg is in the bend of leg at thigh.

Size in Perspective

Length.... next to a body pillow...
OK so... mentally straighten him out

Nala the Laughing Cat (ORIGINAL) for LL

2011-01-29T20:34:00.001-06:00

no really... I've been a good girl

2011-01-23T15:18:00.003-06:00

First - Manny started

Second - Lucy had Tonsils out

Then - Doc busted his wrist....

2011-01-03T14:14:00.000-06:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR

One Turkey Pardon's another

2010-11-25T11:21:00.002-06:00

Song of the Day

2010-10-17T09:06:00.000-05:00

"Maybe there's a God above, and all I ever learned from love was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
And its not a cry you can hear at night, its not somebody who's seen the light, its a cold and its a broken Hallelujah" Rufus Wainwright, Hallelujah

It is called a Baptizm not a Christening

2010-10-04T21:50:00.003-05:00

gotta love balloons

Celebrating World Wide Communion Day

We are one with GOD

hi

2010-08-16T20:36:00.001-05:00

Oh yea, I got one of these things.

Life has been leading us around. Wish we had time to post. sigh.

The Boss has left the building

2010-07-13T12:30:00.004-05:00

George Michael Steinbrenner III (July 4, 1930 – July 13, 2010)

Born as George Michael Steinbrenner III on July 4, 1930 and died as "The Boss" in the early morning hours of July 13, 2010.

George has a baseball legacy that wont be touched by many. He purchased the NY Yankees for $8.8 million and two parking garages in 1973 and their current net worth is estimated to be over 1 billion dollars (current estimate is from Forbes 2009). However, the franchise stands to make a lot of money on 80 years of George memorbilia that is bound to read it's head on the baseball tycoon's death.

George himself has an interesting life. He was a star hurdler in track and field. Yes, it is a little difficult to imagine THE BOSS as we know "jumping hurdles". He has a post graduate degree in physical education from Ohio State University. He served as a second Lieutenant at Lockbourne Air Force base in Columbus Ohio.

I would love to say he entered the sports world (against his fathers wishes) in 1960 and never looked back. This is not true. He invested in The Cleveland Pipers in the ABA (American Basketball League) in 1960. The ABA folded just two years later.

To pay off his massive debt, George went on to Broadway. Yes. You read correctly. The theater. Wow. Here he invested in a half a dozen musicals including a 1974 Emmy nomination!

He also worked for the family business on the Great Lakes and emphasized on shipping grain instead of ore. This lead the business out of the red and into a money making shipping company (Kinsman Marine Transit Company).

Back to baseball.

Steinbrenner in well known for his on and off field antics. He based his team much like a military regiment. His players could wear no facial hair and the hair on their head had to be above their collar. He hired and fired managers and general managers. Including the infamous Billy Martin on five separate occasions. The Billy Martin incident also lead to a string of wacky commercials where Steinbrenner was the bunt of the joke.

In 2006 George let his son's Hank and Hal run the ball club and sought retirement in Tampa Bay, Fl where he granted no interviews and has done few public appearances.

I like to remember George as a good man. He did the greater good for the empire he created in NY with the New York Yankees. He put a fear in the heart of all baseball teams and influenced other sports teams. His team set an example for other people. They were clean cut and expected to perform off the field as they did on the field and keep their nose out of trouble. Those general ethic's that he instilled in the club is what I respect.

Hank Rollins at TPAC in Nashvegas

2010-07-03T18:32:00.001-05:00

I can see the opening lines, "It rained here 2 months ago and Buffet got canceled b/c of the rain. No wait, not rain, you guys are too cool for JUST rain... It got canceled b/c of the flood. Then I looked out the window this afternoon and saw rain and thought, 'Here they go again'" I bet he says something like that. I really wish I was there to hear him!!!!

Just a quote

2010-05-24T20:06:00.003-05:00

Quote of the day: "The edge... There is no honest way to explain it because the only people who really know where it is are the ones who have gone over." Hunter S. Thompson

Found this quote and liked it. LOL. Have nothing else to say.

no apple apple pie, trick the senses

2010-05-24T20:04:00.000-05:00

"This is a recipe for apple pie made without apples. It has all the characteristics of an apple pie with apples. If you didn't know better, you'd think that there really were apples in it. This is an old chemistry lab experiment to teach the limits of human senses."

Ingredients

1 recipe pastry for a 9 inch double crust pie
2 cups water
1 1/2 cups white sugar
1 1/2 teaspoons cream of tartar
25 buttery round crackers
1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
2 tablespoons butter

Directions

Preheat oven to 450 degrees F (225 degrees C).
Roll out pastry and set aside. Bring water to a boil in a large saucepan.
In a small bowl mix together sugar and cream of tartar. Add mixture to boiling water. Stir, then add crackers, one at a time. Boil for 3 minutes, but do not stir.
Pour cracker mixture into pastry-lined pie pan. Sprinkle crackers with cinnamon and dot with butter or margarine. Cover with top pastry. Seal edges and cut steam vents in top.
Bake in preheated oven for 30 minutes, until crust is golden brown. May need to cover top pastry partway through baking to prevent overbrowning.

Is Hell Exothermic or Endothermic

2010-05-17T14:32:00.001-05:00

The following is supposedly an actual question given on a University
of Washington
chemistry mid-term.

Bonus Question: Is Hell exothermic (gives off heat) or endothermic (absorbs
heat)?

Most of the students wrote proofs of
their beliefs using Boyle's Law (gas cools when it expands and heats when it is
compressed) or some v...variant. One student, however, wrote the following:

First, we need to know how the mass of Hell is changing in time. So we need to know the rate at which souls are moving into Hell and the rate at which they are leaving. I think that we can safely assume that once a soul gets to Hell, it will not leave. Therefore, no souls are leaving. As for how many souls are entering Hell, let's look at the ... See More different religions that exist in the world today.

Most of these religions state that if you are not a member of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell. With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.

This gives two possibilities: 1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose. 2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.

So which is it? If we accept the postulate given to me by Teresa during my Freshman year that, "it will be a cold day in Hell before I sleep with you", and take into account the fact that I slept with her last night, then number 2 must be true, and thus I am sure that Hell is exothermic and has already frozen over. The corollary of this theory is that since Hell has frozen over, it follows that it is not accepting any more souls and is therefore, extinct...leaving only Heaven thereby proving the existence of a divine being which explains why, last night, Teresa kept shouting "Oh my God."

BOYCOTT TIDE

2010-05-08T12:29:00.002-05:00

At Tide's website they claim loads of hope will be here on the 12th. You know what tide? By the 12th we won't need your stinking help because all the wet clothes will be mildew and you can never get that smell out.

I do not personally plan on giving you anymore of my business. You should be here now helping not next week.

From an Email From a PERSON that lives here too

2010-05-08T11:26:00.000-05:00

If you live outside of Nashville, you may not be aware, but our city was hit by a 500-year flood over the last few days. The national news coverage gave us 15 minutes, but went back to focusing on a failed car bomb and an oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico. While both are clearly important stories, was that any reason to ignore our story? It may not be as terror-sexy as a failed car bomb or as eco-sexy as an oil spill, but that’s no reason to be ignored.

The Cumberland River crested at its highest level in over 80 years. Nashville had its highest rainfall totals since records began. People drowned. Billions of dollars in damage occurred. It is the single largest disaster to hit Middle Tennessee since the Civil War. And yet…no one knows about it.

Does it really matter? Eventually, it will…as I mentioned, there are billions of dollars in damage. It seems bizarre that no one seems to be aware that we just experienced what is quite probably the costliest non-hurricane disaster in American history. The funds to rebuild will have to come from somewhere, which is why people need to know. It’s hard to believe that we will receive much relief if there isn’t a perception that we need it.

But let’s look at the other side of the coin for a moment. A large part of the reason that we are being ignored is because of who we are. Think about that for just a second. Did you hear about looting? Did you hear about crime sprees? No…you didn’t. You heard about people pulling their neighbors off of rooftops. You saw a group of people trying to move two horses to higher ground. No…we didn’t loot. Our biggest warning was, “Don’t play in the floodwater.” When you think about it…that speaks a lot for our city. A large portion of why we were being ignored was that we weren’t doing anything to draw attention to ourselves. We were handling it on our own.

Some will be quick to find fault in the way rescue operations were handled, but the fact of the matter is that the catastrophe could not have been prevented and it is simply ignorant beyond all reason to suggest otherwise. It is a flood. It was caused by rain. You can try to find a face to stick this tragedy to, but you’ll be wrong.

Parts of Nashville that could never even conceivably be underwater were underwater. Some of them still are. Opry Mills and the Opryland Hotel are, for all intents and purposes, destroyed. People died sitting in standstill traffic on the Interstate. We saw boats going down West End. And, of course, we all saw the surreal image of the portable building from Lighthouse Christian floating into traffic and being destroyed when cars were knocked into it. I’m still having trouble comprehending all of it.

And yet…life will go on. We’ll go back to work, to school, to our lives…and we’ll carry on. In a little over a month, I’ll be on this website talking about the draft. In October, we’ll be discussing the new Predators’ season with nary a thought of these past few days. But in a way, they changed everyone in this town. We now know that that it can happen to us…but also know that we can handle it.

Because we are Nashville.

By Patten Fuqua - Section 303 – May 4, 2010

Thank You America

2010-05-08T10:04:00.008-05:00

Song of the day: "War Pigs" Black Sabbath

Quote of the day: "I am always doing that which I can not do, in order that I may learn how to do it" Pablo Picasso (1881-1973)

DONATE TO FLOOD RELIEF

There are a few things I have to say. I am sure that does not surprise my readers. Those of you that stumble upon this might be shocked by a few things I have to say. Well, I am going to be quite blunt.

Fuck off America. You gave to Haiti, you gave to Hurricane Katrina, you adopt your babies from China, but you neglect to acknowledge the devastation of a 500 year flood. We are a level 6 disaster. The second worse disaster next to Katrina in the last 50 years.

Let me tell you this. Our little state is more UNITED than the entire United States of America. Neighbors helping Neighbors. Strangers helping strangers. Hands on Nashville had 4,000 people show up to volunteer the first week. The first week they had 14,500 volunteer man hours vested in cleaning up at ground zero. This does not count the man hours not logged.

LAST WEEK
On Saturday May 1 2010 the forecast was for 3-4 INCHES of rain, severe thunderstorms, and tornado watches. I was very apprehensive because Doc had to work and I in general do not do well in inclement weather.

On Sunday May 2 2010 the reality of imminent doom started to wane when local flash flooding was coming in waves and motorist were trapped on interstate and downtown started to flood. Around 11pm we lost power and thus lost contact with the outside world. We had no idea it was so bad.

A neighbor sent us a txt message that school was going to be closed on Monday. She also sent us a message that the water department was shutting off water and to draw some.

On Monday, May 3 2010, we had no power and no way to cook food. We made the snap decision to run to the store and get sandwich food and ice for the cooler. What we saw was unbelievable.

First was the shell shocked visions of mass amounts of running water. In the creeks. We saw small groups of people coming out in the rain and surveying their damage. We got our food and hunny stopped at Dunkin Donuts so I could have a coffee. All the stores in Goodlettsville had signs up "Closed due to Flood" written on any paper in different pens and water logged taped to the intercoms. But not DD. Thank God for that. I was in desperate need of coffee.

I spent Monday Night on the Cell phone calling people and letting them know we are OK. See we are Uphill from Nashville. If it was this bad here, what was it like there. I charged cell in car.

On Tuesday May 4th Doc got home really late. All access roads to the plant were blocked. They left via the rail road access road in a 4x4. Tuesday I had to take him to work. What I saw will haunt me for a long time. Ok what I kinda saw, I was driving and had the whole family in the car.

Inside the car were echos of OMG OMG from the back seat. When we crossed the bridge over Dickerson Pike, "Daddy E... is that a roof?" Admittedly I goose necked to see... IT was the roof of a gas station canopy. Next to it was a building with tractor trailers hooked up to be loaded. The water covered everything and the rig part of the trucks were waving back and forth and floating. Near the gas station the street lights were still lit and hovering inches above the water. It was eerie. And that is the only word to describe it. Eerie.

After we exited the interstate we made several turn around's (me not being familiar with the area was really relying on my memory to get back out of there and to get it right the first time) and Dropped E off at work. We did make it back to highway on first try, yea me! Going back home it was easier to get a look because there was no traffic. On the bridge water was lapping at the shoulder and there was a lake between west and east bound traffic. You could smell the tell tale smell of rotten eggs as you went past the natural gas utility building (that really scared me) and we saw the metro link under water. We saw school buses under water.

Let me back up a second. "E" works at the only water plant still working. His was in danger of flooding but had not flooded yet.

The closer we got to Goodlettsville, the drier it was. I felt a tremendous relief seeing road I knew were dry. What I was not prepared for happened when I turned off of Madison Creek Rd and on to Patton Branch road. It brought tears to my eyes.

The victems were cleaning up their yards. In front of each area being cleaned were 5-6 cars just randomly pulled over. People dragging rakes and shovels out of their trunks. Walking to help. And you could tell it was random acts of kindness because of the way people were dressed and they way they were parked and the way they walked and approached the ones working.

That is how the week went here. People helping people. The power came back on on Monday evening. We got a good look at the news. I called our mom's. I appologized for being short with them. (we had been talking at least 3 times a day) and informed them I saw what they were seeing. Yes. Panic is a good word for a mom! LOL. I'd have panic'd too if I saw that by either of their homes!

Tuesday school was cancled again. We spent time cleaning sticks out of the yard and watching TV. I just let the kids watch what they wanted on both TV's when they wanted.

I just really wanted to tell America to piss off. You guys went out of your way to help people in other countries during natural disasters but have done nothing to help us, your fellow countrymen, people in YOUR back yard. BUT we the people of Tennessee have taken care of that and have helped each other. I hope you can learn from that.

For more Info on the FLOOD, please goto NewsChannel5.com

Nashville Flood from Local tributatories

2010-05-04T17:49:00.005-05:00

Flood OFF

Pictures don't do the creepy justice

2010-05-04T13:42:00.003-05:00

pictures taken from metro water plant on the cumberland of the cumberland river about an hour before it hit it's crest.

Flood pictures - Rain Rain GO away dang it

2010-05-01T20:03:00.004-05:00

Bang Head Here

2010-04-30T07:41:00.004-05:00

Quote of the day: "I get up every morning determined to both change the world and have one hell of a good time. Sometimes this makes planning my day difficult." E.B. White. US Author and Humorist (1899- 1985)

Song of the day: "Against All Odds (Take a look at me now) Phil Collins

Today is Friday, right? Someone needs to tell the household pests. LOL. Today I have managed to haul my butt out of bed... cook breakfast (twice)... wake up kids... gets them dressed and functional ... harass Doc at work... walk and feed dog, water pets, make a decent pot of coffee (only took 2 tries boohoohoo)...ahhh damn... that's it. For a day that started at 4am (thanks hunny)... you'd think I'd done more.

I have about a dozen things I need to do this morning. Whoopie Doopie.

Found the stack of Christmas Cards and Thank You cards from kids... should I send them? LMBO. Yeap. That is how this year is going to be. Dang things are not even addressed.

Danger WILL ROBINSON Danger

2010-04-30T07:21:00.001-05:00

Kosovo separatists confiscate Serbia’s telecoms

READ ME NOW

But somehow this does not over shadow the oil spill or the volcano. I think this is a lot more of an important issue to be in the news.

A little more to the Left

2010-04-28T16:52:00.003-05:00

When things go bump in the night, I do get up and investigate them. Last night I kept hearing a tapping noise. I had just got into bed, it was 2:45am. I got up knowing I had to be the great defender of all (seeing Doc was at work) and this is what I found, Alvin re-arranging the wall art and Shasta urging him on. OK Al, next job is to remove the defunct wall unit and patch up the wall! And for the record Alvin is a camera hound and is willing to hold still and that is why he gets his pic taken more than the rest.

TICK WARNING VIP

2010-04-27T14:55:00.000-05:00

TICK WARNING! IMPORTANT!

I hate it when people post email warnings, but this one is real. If someone comes to your front door saying they are checking for ticks due to the warm weather and asks you to take your clothes off and dance around with your arms up, DO NOT DO IT! THIS IS A SCAM! They only want to see you naked.......

I wish I'd gotten this yesterday. I feel so stupid

Is it ME or does he make a Queen size bed look small?

2010-04-25T23:08:00.002-05:00

DAN the MAN

2010-04-25T22:46:00.000-05:00

I had a dream

2010-04-25T13:42:00.002-05:00

I am not sure what it means but I think it means that someone and I are going to go into separate directions because of lies. That is all.

*edit*
I am not sure how the dream started but I remember we were on a train, just two people. And all the sudden the seats split apart and he was on a different track than I. My went in a straight destination (that I later learned was oddly familiar) and his went kind of off like a roller coaster and another passenger said not to worry, the trains met back at the station, that one took the down town route where people can pick up anything or anyone they need. My train got to the platform and it was deserted and had nice wooden benches and the cement was wet like it had rained. As I got off the conductor said to have a seat, it was a safe neighborhood and to get a coffee and the other train would be by in about thirty minutes. I rushed to the ticket window to get out connecting tickets and realized that my partner had the tickets. So, I went over to get my coffee, it was a Starbucks but set up like a gas station, I got a cup of coffee and the clerk yelled at me that in this town you pay first then make your own coffee. But I had made the coffee first. I paid her and she said it was a dollar and seven cents with the sales tax. I said, "Oh I know where I am then" and gave her the money and she took my coffee and threw it away. she said now you make your coffee. So, I got one and went out to wait on the platform but my partner never showed.

Bonus

2010-04-23T17:18:00.003-05:00

Phineas (Above) Is Smarter than Jimmy Newtron

Alvin the Visitor

What do you mean I'm a horse?

Size matters. That is a standard size tennis ball the kids picked up for Jeeves at Pet Smart.
I know I Know
It IS PINK
Doc says it looks like Jeeves has mumps when he has it in his mouth!
BUT
look at 'Ol Al next to it! He won't stop growing!

Friday Cat Blogging

2010-04-23T17:03:00.004-05:00

I was just fixing my fur
Now I'm Daddy's purrrrrrty boy

simple facts

2010-04-23T07:07:00.000-05:00

It takes 7 seconds for food to pass from mouth to stomach. A human hair can hold 3 kg. The length of the penis is three times the length of the thumb. The femur is hard as concrete. The woman's heart beats faster than the man. Women blink twice as much as men. We use 300 muscles just to hold the balance when we stand. ...The woman has read this entire text. The man is STILL looking at his thumb.

Dear God (Joke from FB)

2010-04-23T07:03:00.003-05:00

Dear GOD

Last year you took a few of my favorite people. My favorite actor Patric Swayze, my favorite actress Farrah Fawcet, my favorite singer Michael Jackson. I just wanted to let you know that this year my favorite reality show actress is Kate Gosslin, my favorite news caster is Larry King, my favorite presidential contender is Sarah Palin, and my favorite president is Barack Obama.

AMEN

From Eternity to Here

2010-04-18T11:18:00.010-05:00

I had a little fun recently by merely kicking back and thinking about some of the really nifty shit I've done during my stay on this here planet. My list is by no means all-inclusive, and I highly encourage you to compile your own list. Keep in mind that it doesn't matter how big or small your items/events are, so long as they are important to YOU! Meantime, here's my list (in no particular order). Borrowed From HOLLAND's Comet. I am sure I missed a lot of stuff but these were the highlights that came to mind and as they came to mind.

Since my arrival on this sphere we call Earth on 12/23/71 yours truly...

Watched my first ever 20 inning baseball game on April 17th, 2010. Cardinals v Mets. Mets took it 2-1. No runs until the 19th inning.
Played knock knock, ditch 'em.
Knocked on someone's door (on a bet) and asked if Mike Cunn was there.
Skipped school on Senior Skip day as a freshman, sophomore, and junior.
Drank JD. Might have been considered an alcoholic for awhile but quit cold turkey when I found out I was pregnant.
Waited until I was 24 to have sex.
Wore black framed glasses so I wouldn't be that noticeable as pretty.
Was/Am shy.
Irish Catholic church warped my life. I did not know until recent that Christianity and Catholic were of the same religion. I was scared the Methodist Church was going to burn down by entering. It never did of course.
Posed for questionable photographs in HS to make money to pay the bills.
Raised my mother.
Got Bob Newhart autograph for my friend Nuite at a bathroom door at a rest area in New Baltimore, NY. Nuite was too chicken to approach him, I'd worked a double, was tired and looked like shit. The signature was on a napkin. I wonder if he still has it.
**UPDATE** Signature is still in existence!
Mom worked for the newspaper so I had back-stage passes to all the great shows of the '80's and 90's, met most of the headliners and opening acts.
Got kissed by one of the band members of Anthrax when I asked for his autograph during the interview process. On the lips. I just blinked my eyes and asked why he did that, he said I was the first person to ask for his autograph. Awww shucks. I told him I was a virgin and didn't do stuff like that. He laughed. But it was the truth!
At the Wasp, Slayer, Raven show I got caught in my first Mosh Pit circle. Some dude wearing a cowboy hat and boots, smoking a cig, snatched a bewildered me by the shoulder out of the mad rush of circle slam dancing and held me firmly by the shoulders in front of him.
Smoked a joint with the members of the band Black Crows when they were sitting on a curb at the rest area in New Baltimore looking all forlorn at their broke down 70's something van. I was getting off of work and saw a bunch of people sitting on the curb that looked like people I'd hang out with. Another one of those never ending shifts. I just sat down next to one of them and they were passing a joint, it came to me a few times before they even noticed I was there. we all had a great laugh on that one! I later met them the next night at the show I was covering for my mother and we had a second laugh. I did not publish the first meeting however, gotta save grace once in a while.
Met Metallica at the same rest area before they got Real BIG, I think it was the ...and Justice for all tour... I was pissed off about something (who me?) and stormed out the back door of the place I worked and started to punch the outside freezer. The lead singer, James Hetfield grabbed my hand in mid-swing and told me not to break that pretty little thing. First I was amazed at how big they all were, not fat just fit like big, and how short Lars Ulrich really was. I remember bursting into tears! He stood there and lectured me for a minute and I snapped out of the anger/shock and actually introduced myself. I told him I wasn't suppose to meet them until 5pm! LOL. We all got a good laugh at that. Was really uncomfortable at the actual interview because they'd already met me and saw me have a human moment...(I wasn't in control, you see, the interviewer is always in control but they had something on me)... but wrote a great piece anyway. Then had rocking seats for the show because they "upgraded" me.
Met Hank Rollins twice. Once when they tried to run over us with the van (us being NYPINTA and I) and the second when I was 7 months preg and waited to meet him with NYPINTA. Sigh. Then he yelled at us for being in the wrong line. We told him that the ushers downstairs had directed people in two directions! First show I had to wait to meet someone! But it was spoken word and right up my alley.
Got mad at Hank for using Eye Scream as the title of his book after I had shared with him a poem I wrote with the same name. Fucker, where's my cut.
Gave birth to first child without any Drugs.
Gave birth to my second child with Drugs.
Shot someone. On purpose.
Experienced a psychotic episode and almost killed the doctor that refused to do the C-section when second child got stuck. I laugh now, they had to restrain me and eventually knocked me out. I was scared to death at the time. I said, "I DID NOT CARRY THIS CHILD FOR 9 MONTHS TO LOOSE HER NOW" and meant it. All in active labor had the doctor by the throat up against a wall. Shocked really that I didn't drop the baby out, kicking and screaming as 3 men carried me to the bed and restrained me.
Attempted to write a book with NYPINTA before we got out of HS.
Still attempting to get the book right only now I've scratched 90% of what we did and am working on a new layout. Maybe one day.
Write bad poetry when the mood hits.
Fell madly in love with Jim Tome's batting style and that renewed my faith in the Cleveland Indians. The way he looked in them tight white baseball pants helped! Heh, Heh. I am human!
Owned the best dog ever. Jeter. Jeter after Derick Jeter and only because he wouldn't come to Tome! LOL. Brian and I were watching a NY Yankee game and it was DJ's big year. Every time they said Jeter, my puppy would look up with his ears all picked up. That was after a dozen or so names we had tried. I said, looks like he named himself. I said "Jeter" and he looked at me. So, that is how he got that name. But, I still cry thinking of his death and loosing my best friend!
Worked at a prison. Renewed my cussabilty.
Quit the prison and went back to college at 35, that sucked.
Finally got to see The Boss. Show rocked. I almost had heart failure at the ticket prices.
Got fat.
then Fatter.
Lost sight of my hopes and dreams.
Swore I'd never date again.
Swore I'd never make new friends again.
Met Kelly. (aka Philly) And realized that friends are cool. Well, Kelly was! I miss her so MUCH.
Met Jen R. Realized I was sane.
Ended friendship with Jen R. Realized I was sane.
Found my account on FB that I made up for a class at college and went to delete it but realized that I had a bunch of friend request's from people I actually KNEW! Accepted invites and joined their Mafia's for a game.
Became a Mafia Wars addict. But I only play the free part not the pay part. LOL. So, not that addicted!
Found my heart, it was hiding in Tennessee, who'd have looked there?
Met Doc.

Tasteless

2010-04-16T21:14:00.005-05:00

Joke of the day

This whats happens when you pee on a 220 volt electric fence!

THE RESULT

Global Warming?

2010-04-16T21:13:00.002-05:00

The Real Story of the Three Bears

2010-04-15T22:08:00.000-05:00

The Real Story of the Three Bears

A far more accurate account of the events of that fateful morning....

Baby bear goes downstairs, sits in his small chair at the table.
He looks into his small bowl. It is empty. 'Who's been eating my
porridge?' he squeaks..

Daddy Bear arrives at the big table and sits in his big chair. He looks
into his big bowl and it is also empty. 'Who's been eating my
porridge?!?' he roars.

Mummy Bear puts her head through the serving hatch from the kitchen and
yells, 'For God's sake, how many times do I have to go through this
with you idiots? It was Mummy Bear who got up first. It was Mummy Bear
who woke everyone in the house. It was Mummy Bear who made the coffee.
It was Mummy Bear who unloaded the dishwasher from last night and put
everything away. It was Mummy Bear who swept the floor in the kitchen.
It was Mummy Bear who went out in the cold early morning air to fetch
The newspaper and croissants. It was Mummy Bear who set the damn
table.

'It was Mummy Bear who walked the bloody dog, cleaned the cat's litter
tray, gave them their food, and refilled their water.

'And now that you've decided to drag your sorry bear-arses downstairs
and grace Mummy Bear with your grumpy presence, listen carefully,
because I'm only going to say this once.....

'I HAVEN'T MADE THE F***ING PORRIDGE YET

Everything I Know I learned from Noah's Ark

2010-04-15T21:57:00.002-05:00

Everything I Know I learned from Noah's Ark

1- Don't miss the boat
2- Remember that wee are all in the same boat!
3- Plan ahead. It wasn't raining when Noah built the Ark
4- Stay fit. When your 60 years old, someone may ask you to do something really big.
5- Don't listen to critics; just get on with the job that needs to be done.
6- Build your future on high ground.
7- For safety's sake, travel in pairs.
8- Speed isn't always an advantage. The snails were on board with the cheetahs.
9- When you're stressed, float awhile.
10-Remember, the Ark was built by amateurs; the Titanic by professionals.
11-No matter the storm, when you are with GOD, there's always a rainbow waiting.

Naked Snoopy Dance

2010-04-14T00:44:00.002-05:00

we are home. again. finally.

Last time the kids went to Georgia to visit for a few days, when they came home, we pulled in the driveway and Amanda started to cry. Relief. 'Tweenie emotions, whatever.

When we pulled in the driveway a few hours ago it was my turn. We are home. This is where we are meant to be and I am grateful for the small deviations from home that make me appreciate it that much more. I even confessed this to Doc when we were standing on the front porch just "taking in some air". I don't confess emotions regarding crying much so tonight is just a monumental thing for me.

you have not missed much. Last friday we sat in traffice for 10 hours. I made a confession to Doc about some guilt and we got off of the interstate to use the facilities. Suddenly we were able to aquire directions to an alternative route and got home in less than two hours from there. the funny thing was, the ONLY place we made time was on I75 in downtown Atlanta. (we'd come up from Macon instead of across Fermi and Dave in case you wondering WTF we were doing downtown). I actually took that strip in 6th gear at 80. The only part of the trip prior to the change of route where I had the 6 speed in 6th gear! I think, not to preach, that God wanted me to tell Doc about my guilty feelings about skipping this semester. He showed us an alternative route. Now we just need to find a way to stay on it.

we had also dug up my Japanese Maple (pictured in other post) and planted it here. She is doing lovely I hope she continues to love her new home.

We had a dull week without the kids. Being broke does that to one. LOL. But we did take one afternoon and go to Barnes and Nobles and ...err.. browse... errr... and ... oh hell spend money we don't have to spend but WTF. Not only that but I made Doc go back on our way out of town and bought two more books. Oh darn.

Started writing again. Now that I got the source that I wanted for reference. I got 849 words typed. Should be more but my mind is racing and I've had a problem harnessing that into actual words. LOL. I have half the story wrote in my head it is getting it to computer!

Back to get the kids, I dug up a few blueberry bushes and a few of the plum tree saplings. Need to plant them tomorrow and hope they take.

Wasn't that worth the trip over here to read? LMBO. Lawrd, we lead dull lives. But the kids are home and we plan on staying here ALL DAY and not leaving. Yea, let you know if that happens. LOL.

Worry Tree

2010-04-07T13:32:00.002-05:00

The significance of the tree falls into the Thin Spaces post. Here is the story the best I can remember.

There was a couple that had been married for 50 years. When inquired about this long marriage and long friendship, the man did not give the typical answers. He replied, "Every night when I come home I pause at the worry tree. I give the tree all of my worry's, aggravations, frets, and issues of the day. I trust the tree to keep them and give them to to Lord to help me sort out, ON MY TIME. Every morning I faithfully return to the tree and pick my worries back up. The amazing thing is that they are not so bad when I pick them back up. Having the faith that my problems can be sorted by a higher power gives me faith that my relationship with my wife and family can be in existence by our power and love and guidance of a higher power.

I was telling Doc about that story after I replanted that tree. He made the remark that the "Worry Tree" was most likely that man's "Thin Place."

Thought I would share.

Happy Anniversary Doc

2010-04-06T14:33:00.003-05:00

One year. We made it a year. What an interesting and difficult year it has been. It has been a year of growth and adjustment for all four of us but mostly for Doc. He has had to learn to be a dad and he is really super good at it. He has taught me a few things about being a parent too, which no parent likes to admit they are not perfect, LOL but at least I admit I can adapt too. I wanted to get this post in before the actual date of April 1 but that little thing called life erupted and we were on the road. Here is a pic of the flowers Doc gave me on the eve of our Anniversary. TY Doc, I love you. We are good. And Good leads to Great. We just have to continue to grow (IN KNOWLEDGE NOT GIRTH) and adapt!

XOXO

Thin Places

2010-03-28T18:47:00.004-05:00

Thin Places are an interesting phenomenon. The Celtic's believed they were places on Earth where the physical space between them and GOD was smaller. As Christianity spread so did the belief in Thin Places. Stone Henge is one of the more popular Thin Places in existence to mankind. People travel from all over the world to view Stone Henge.
There is another theory of the lights of Aurora being where the Angels dance.

And a more common place to find peace and tranquility and a closeness to God is a sunrise or sunset. Many people feel a divine closeness at watching either.
The other day we were driving the girls to Georgia to visit with the grandparents for the holiday. This was the day after Doc had delivered his service about Thin Places. We were on I20 and the moon was on the rise. It was oblong shaped and a fiery red color. What we would commonly refer to as the Harvest Moon. For the first time in my life I saw "The Man on The Moon" ... other than in pictures or in cartoon drawings. I said to Doc, "There is my Thin Place".
Now, in that picture found on the internet, you can't really see the Man on The Moon but it is a nice moon shot. Can't find the silly thing when your looking for one!

Where is your thin place?

oh yea, um... I am not the sharpest tack but don't ask DOC

2010-03-01T11:57:00.003-06:00

Song of the day: "Sunny Came Home" Shawn colvin, A few small repairs (1996)

Quote of the day: "Nothing in this world is more dangerous than sincere ignorance and conscientious stupidity." Martin Luther King Jr. (1929-1968)

Here is an example of a day in the life of me. Now, I am going to give you a pieced version of the general consciousness of what may have happened. But first I am going to tell you what lead up to it.

When I was about Amanda's age and a little older, we spent many summers running up to the town of Lake George, NY. And more specifically to Lake Champlain I learned how to water ski there. I also learned about the legend of Champ. Image of Champ and Craig Olsons account of Champ. I was reminded of the lake and swimming by the winter Olympics and Amanda's sudden interest in swimming in the summer games. It was just a memory and I didn't share it with any members of the house hold!

Now, onto better things. Doc went to work and the night entertainment started here. Amanda found a "hair" down there and there was much shrieking about her turning into a boy. Do what? Really? Well kids were in the bath when this happened. Amanda had actually rolled over in the bath screaming and scared the tar out of Lucy. Lucy did the soccer game streak down the hall screaming and running like the devil himself was chasing her. I had to reach down and yank Amanda up by the head fearing certain drowning incident! Jeeves peacefully stood in the door, bounding back and forth barking. SEE HE WARNED THEM that bath time was evil!

Needless to say, i did not start housework until almost ten and went to bed a little after 3am.

So, should it be any great surprise that when Doc came home and got into bed at 6:15am and made one simple request, "Jenn, hunny, move over a little bit." that my answer was something like:
Doc: Jenn, hunny, move over a little bit.
Jenn: I am sorry, I can't do that right now, I am water skiing and I just hit my head on a plank.
Doc: What?
Jenn: You wanted Swiss Steak for dinner right? I will follow the recipe for boiled crab.
Doc: Let's just forget we had this conversation, baby, and move over, I am tired.
Jenn: OK, you walked the dog right.

He promptly turned his back to me in the bed. I guess he was scared I was contagious!

There was a little more to it than that but i don't remember all that was said now.

Moral of this:
I talk in my sleep. Please don't engage me in conversation when I am sleep because you just wont get it..

oh yea ... hello

2010-02-27T17:38:00.002-06:00

Quote of the day: "Throw your heart over the fence and the rest will follow." Norman Vincent Peale (1898-1993)

Song of the day: " Born on the Bayou" CCR 1969

NEWS:
22 days until the first day of SPRING.

tidbit

2010-02-07T02:45:00.001-06:00

National Marriage Week is Feb 7th to 14th in the USA every year according to Romans 15:4.

Lucy Pic"s

2010-01-30T19:01:00.002-06:00

snow

2010-01-29T21:39:00.002-06:00

Jump Rope Heart Awarness

2010-01-29T01:01:00.005-06:00

Our girl Amanda is doing a fund raiser to support the American Heart Association.
Putting the link to Amanda's page on my blog to help raise money
AND
to help raise awareness of The American Heart Association and who they are.
Amanda will be jumping rope to raise money. She is also being educated about the heart, it's function and diseases (esp the ones that affect kido's). Please click her page and donate. Her goal is $100.
Thanks So Much.

Fun with the big cat

2010-01-29T00:13:00.001-06:00

I gave Jeeves a ham bone today and took it away from him. I then asked him if it was cat food. He reaslly did not think so.

Well Hello there

2010-01-23T20:42:00.003-06:00

Quote of the day: "Facts are stubborn things." Ebenezer Elliott, Field Husbandry

Song of the day: "Settelin" Sugarland

I really have nothing to say. I could blog about the weeks of drudgery with a cynical note; but I don't want to.

I have started to write again.

16'f feels like 5'f; has a ring to it I don't care for!

2010-01-03T09:13:00.003-06:00

In OTHER NEWS,
Meet Jeeves,
the new cat

first picture, he hid by Thalia most of the day. Second pic he discovered the cat toys and was hording them when he went to sleep. He has now added a towel, recepit, and one cat dish to his collection.

the girls xmas morn

2009-12-29T15:16:00.002-06:00

Zhu Zhu WHAT? Danger Lucy, Danger!

2009-12-29T15:11:00.002-06:00

'Twas the Night before Christmas

2009-12-29T15:10:00.002-06:00

Gripe

2009-12-14T12:14:00.009-06:00

Here is the Blog that is ruining my life. DIGBITCH So, now we don't view it from the house or the cell phone but if you check the stats it is still being viewed from work. We hide it. And I am suppose to be happy here. How can I be happy if he emails other women @ bellsouth and devotes more time to DIGBY than to actual conversations with the HUMAN in his relationship? Say nothing about that executive bellsouth account that he emails the whores from. hmmm?

we put the tree skirt down for the cats, right?

2009-12-13T21:53:00.004-06:00

I awoke the other morning to quite a start. My fake tree had real feet under it. YIKES.

Signing Off

2009-11-22T01:07:00.001-06:00

Song of the day: "Hello... Goodbye..." The Beatles

Quote of the day: "I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish he didn't trust me so much." Mother Teresa (1910-1997)

I just want to share a few insecurities... We all have them and share from time to time. My big one is my parenting skills. I try at times but I am not always good at it. Honestly, sometimes I flat out suck. My other insecurity is relationships.

This is a hello goodbye post.

The 'Goodbye' factor is that I will be leaving blogland for an undisclosed amount of time that may be forever. HOWEVER, I do expect you to check my blog periodically because I might just throw a cat blog or picture up. But for this, (the leaving part)I am sorry. I have met some really great people here. You are the same people that have got me through some really big potholes in my life. The current pothole is larger than life and I can't be here. I do not admit defeat easily. I admit it now.

The 'Hello' factor is that I want you to know Doc for who he is and not for whom he thinks he is. He is a really great man. He plays nice with kids. He is the best friend a person could ask for. He is the best boyfriend a person could ask for. He is a fantastic lover. He is a good God fearing man. He has a few hang up's. We all do. But I want my fellow bloggers and bloggettes to know he is genuine and good.

In other news. Mandy is flaking off at school and that is something that has to be addressed and that we are addressing on a regular basis. She has hit 'Tweenie' full force. There appears to be no winning with her. She is failing things that she knows with her eyes closed, she is ... we won't go there.

I have been rung through the ringer with Lulu these last few weeks. I think I am starting to get how to be smarter than a 3 year old! I am not happy with the course of progress communicating with her has taken. I am disappointed in my actions as a parent (no I haven't beat her or anything, not to worry, I am not a great parent but I am not a horrible one either!). I just am not comfortable with this alternative parenting technique. It is now time to switch gears and try another parenting technique.

Doc suggested (a few months ago) that I take time off of school until Lucy hits kindergarten and then I try again. I did not really agree with that at first. Doc is right about a lot of things and I agree with him on this (in a resentful way). The nice thing is that I do not have to prove myself to Doc. He knows that I am capable of finishing my education and going on with the things we have talked about and that someday everything will get straight and that I will get there.

I am disappointed in myself for letting things go this route. I am disappointed that he didn't think I could do it. But I have realized (after I cried and bitched and GRUMBLED a little. No wait, I was near impossible to live with. ) that I can't do it all. I can't be the full time mom, the full time girlfriend, and the full time student. That is like ~~shitting a miracle~~ pulling teeth from a rabid raccoon.

What I don't like is how I feel inside. I failed myself. I have always been able to do it. I have always been able to do it all for everyone and still manage to take care of me and my needs. This go around it is different. I am frail. I am human. I can't do it all. I can only do my school and feel good about me if I relinquish control to others. This is an incredible realization (on top of the other crap with the kids who are my heart and ultimately what this is about) for me. Doc told me that. He pointed out the 'control freak' factor and I bucked what he said. Well, in the confrontation but the reality is that I have thought long and hard about it.

Again he is right. For a long time I have had to do it all. This goes back to when I was a teenager and raising an alcoholic mother. I was forced into a life of control and setting limitations for other people. But you want to know the truth? I don't even want to balance my own check book. He didn't say I needed to drop my responsibilities (just to qualify that, lol, I have to balance my check book) just that I needed to let the reins loose on things. And I got really insecure.

The other thing I do not do is being repeatedly lied to. Once you get over a lie and move on and open your heart to trust again, you really do not expect to experience it again less than 24 hours later. And again a month later and so on and so forth. I will not tolerate it from my kids, my friends, my family, or from Doc. I have ended more friendships (and cut family out of my world) from lies then I can count. I don't think it is unreasonable to not tolerate lies and deceit.

I don't like to be repeatedly lied to and have things hidden from me. I never have and I never will. I have found a side of me with Doc that I don't like. I am a jealous and selfish person. I don't like other women emailing him. I don't like that he gets right on the computer and checks all the women bloggers first (with the exception of Jeni, Fermi, Nat, Debo, and Kathleen - I don't mind you ladies) and comments to your blogs before he even speaks to me. You are who his relationship is with and not me. And I hate that more than anything. I hate that I insisted that he embrace the 21st century and get a great new computer because all it causes me now is grief. I am more important that the internet, I LIVE HERE DAMNIT. End of Story.

So, bear with me. I have a family to repair. I have wonderful relationship to build and grow from and with, maybe. My I have my own shallowness to address. I have a three year old to reprogram. I have a tween to ~~kick her head out of her ass~~ try to keep on track... Realizing you never grew up when your 37 is a real bitch. But realizing it is the big part of the battle.

This is real and this is life and I am happy I woke up this morning and took a deep breath. I think I just exhaled.

My how they grow

2009-11-20T14:37:00.005-06:00

What does this image say to you?

2009-11-16T22:10:00.001-06:00

Let's screw with our cats

2009-11-14T21:22:00.004-06:00

LOL... I have found a testing site to figure out how smart your cats are. Fermi ... Nat... Kat... Jan... Jeni...Kelly (there is one for dogs too)... let me know your results.

Cat Blogging

2009-11-14T15:26:00.005-06:00

Smart Cats with MBA's

This is an article in Today's paper the Tennessean. The Author must really think that human cat owners are stupid or at least would see the joke in this. To read the full Article click here.

Hmmm Really? We read the article for the cats and asked them to vote. This is what the 3 cat jury thinks of Ms Linda's article....

were i a warning label

2009-11-12T09:25:00.002-06:00

This should be interesting, please participate! (and if you reply please post it to your facebook, twitter, or blog! not required but fun!)

If you were to put a warning label on me; what would it say?

blonde gets payback

2009-11-12T09:24:00.001-06:00

A trucker came into a truck stop cafe and placed his order. He said, "I
want three flat tires, a pair of headlights and pair of running boards."

The brand new blonde waitress, not wanting to appear stupid, went to the kitchen and said to the cook, "This guy out there just ordered three flat tires, a pair of headlights and a pair of running boards. What does he think this place is, an auto parts store?"

"No," the cook said. "Three flat tires mean three pancakes, a pair of
headlights is two eggs sunny side up, and running boards are 2 slices of
crisp bacon."

"Oh, OK!" said the blonde. She thought about it for a moment and then
spooned up a bowl of beans and gave it to the customer.

The trucker asked, "What are the beans for, Blondie?"

I LOVE THIS ONE............
She replied, "I thought while you were waiting for the flat tires, headlights and running boards,
you might as well gas up!"

FOR ONCE THE BLONDE GETS EVEN!

Conjugate this

2009-11-11T21:23:00.002-06:00

OKEE DOKEE people out there smarter than I...

We were watching Keith Olbermann on MSNBC and he was reading a quote made about some lady politician and her lack of apology. The quote read, "...the lack there of a sorry or any conjugation of the verb..." UMmmm... OK... HOW in the HECK do you conjugate SORRY?

Happy Veterans Day

2009-11-11T14:25:00.001-06:00

Having fun with the Media

2009-11-10T20:31:00.001-06:00

Go Grow your own Penis and then you can have babies. The rabbits did. LMAO.